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Since Jessica and I are now merely "having fun" and the seriousness of the relationship is gone, I went out last night with a new girl. I'm not very attracted to her despite her being really cute. She wears a lot of make up and is more accesorized than me. I don't know why, but I'm not into that. I like little girls who look like little boys.
ANYWAY
after a constant power struggle over what we were going to do, she starts ignoring me to talk to this girl I'm not really fond of because face it, I'm jealous of how cute she is. Anyway, shes just ignoring me so I leave, I go to another bar, I go home go to bed. She finally calls me back and wants to know where I am, she hadn't even noticed and I had been gone like an hour.
Anyway i go and pick her up she comes home with me. We try to do it. but she won't let me touch her? So naturally I can't get wet really because I'm drunk and not very into it since i can't touch her.
PLUS every time I do try to touch her she PINS my hands over my head.
I don't know what else to say, but this girl was like retard strong! I could not move for serious. I tried to just like roll her off of me but i couldn't move! This was not hot it was making me very frustrated.
Then I got all weepy and I ruined the rest of the night because I looked like I freak. I tried to explain I just didn't like that, I'm too sensitive sometimes. But i was really drunk and I mean why should I have to stand by a drunk emotion?
So my night sucked ass.
Now jessica is going with me to this show and i don't know how I feel about that. She also wants to spend the night with me.