Life is ever changing and never changing. Until now.
I am taking some serious steps to cut the bullshit out of my life, make up for old mistakes, fix myself and the small world I seem to live in.
A few days ago during one hell of a long drive out of nowhere I got a text message from a guy friend. This guy friend in particular I really only hear from when he is drunk or unhappy with his girlfriend. I turned to my passenger to say " I guarantee he is either drunk or he broke up with his girlfriend" sure enough, it was both, best part is, I see him out the next day, they got back together and suddenly he no longer wants to speak with me.
Eye opener. I am what some would refer to as a "show dog" a pretty face to be seen out with, but it strikes me that not too many of my friends really care to know who I am, I am the life of the party, someone different to shake things up a bit, and I am so tired of it. I am sick of being the fun for everyone until they find someone else that actually means something to them to spend their time with.
Ive noticed this not only happening with my guy friends, but with my girl friends as well. It seems that I really only hear from some of my girls when they want something pierced for free or they want me to hook them up with one of the tattoo artists I either work with or know.
If it means I am about to become a complete recluse, I am cutting people like this out of my life. My mom has spent her life being a rug for people to walk on and use and though I would love to grow up and be a lot like my mother, I think I already have her best qualities and I am not about to become a floor mat for all these random people that will eventually run off as soon as theyre getting laid.
On a semi good note, I drove my ass out to Chicago for a huge multi last weekend. It included myself, Kraven, Salome, Oui, Coralee, Caprica, Tootie, and Oogie. The theme is absolutely awesome and I had a great time shooting. Though it was awesome it was exhausting, I drove 6 hours there on Saturday night at 8pm, stayed with Salome, did the whole hair and makeup thing, and hit the road back to Iowa at about 10pm. I finally got my ass back home at 5ish in the morning, just to get up and go to work. Exhausting.
I have a few behind the scenes shots for you all. The hair and makeup artists did an amazing job with all of us ladies, I cant wait until you all get to see this set!!!!!
Yes I had a 6 piece corset done for this event too!
That is all youre going to get for now. A huge thank you to Anatomic for kicking ass with the direction and camera, and thank you so much for inviting me to be a part of this. Also a huge thanks to Shyla and Sauda for their awesome support.
All my love
PS though it may be hard to really see, my arm is coming along nicely
I am taking some serious steps to cut the bullshit out of my life, make up for old mistakes, fix myself and the small world I seem to live in.
A few days ago during one hell of a long drive out of nowhere I got a text message from a guy friend. This guy friend in particular I really only hear from when he is drunk or unhappy with his girlfriend. I turned to my passenger to say " I guarantee he is either drunk or he broke up with his girlfriend" sure enough, it was both, best part is, I see him out the next day, they got back together and suddenly he no longer wants to speak with me.
Eye opener. I am what some would refer to as a "show dog" a pretty face to be seen out with, but it strikes me that not too many of my friends really care to know who I am, I am the life of the party, someone different to shake things up a bit, and I am so tired of it. I am sick of being the fun for everyone until they find someone else that actually means something to them to spend their time with.
Ive noticed this not only happening with my guy friends, but with my girl friends as well. It seems that I really only hear from some of my girls when they want something pierced for free or they want me to hook them up with one of the tattoo artists I either work with or know.
If it means I am about to become a complete recluse, I am cutting people like this out of my life. My mom has spent her life being a rug for people to walk on and use and though I would love to grow up and be a lot like my mother, I think I already have her best qualities and I am not about to become a floor mat for all these random people that will eventually run off as soon as theyre getting laid.
On a semi good note, I drove my ass out to Chicago for a huge multi last weekend. It included myself, Kraven, Salome, Oui, Coralee, Caprica, Tootie, and Oogie. The theme is absolutely awesome and I had a great time shooting. Though it was awesome it was exhausting, I drove 6 hours there on Saturday night at 8pm, stayed with Salome, did the whole hair and makeup thing, and hit the road back to Iowa at about 10pm. I finally got my ass back home at 5ish in the morning, just to get up and go to work. Exhausting.
I have a few behind the scenes shots for you all. The hair and makeup artists did an amazing job with all of us ladies, I cant wait until you all get to see this set!!!!!
Yes I had a 6 piece corset done for this event too!
That is all youre going to get for now. A huge thank you to Anatomic for kicking ass with the direction and camera, and thank you so much for inviting me to be a part of this. Also a huge thanks to Shyla and Sauda for their awesome support.
All my love
PS though it may be hard to really see, my arm is coming along nicely
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lighthammer1979:
I'm excited to see this new set that you and these other lovely ladies have cooked up. Hope you have a fun and safe trip this weekend. Also now that I'll be able to go out at night and party it up I need to buy you another shot.
rosaleigh:
well you know I ain't no catty bitch, and I love you for many things. Not your hookups and mad skill. Although, I do love your mad skill, but you know what I mean. You're a legit woman, and there's very few of those in the world. That's why I love you. <3