chubbyfairy

Hey everyone

How are you all? (Well, I kinda know cuz I read all of your journals but I felt like asking anyway!)

So Fall is almost over and it's giving the place to Winter. That sucks. We didn't have any proper Fall this year! No colored leafs in the trees because the wind was too strong and it rained almost every single day since the end of September. It must be one of the reasons why I feel so depressed lately.

Yes. It's true. I admit it. I'm fucking depressed. I'm not really used to because I'm a fighter. Usually, when something depresses me, I knwo exactly what it is and I'll fight it until I win and feel good again which never takes more than a day or two. But I'm feeling really down since a few weeks now. My exams didn't go really well. Didn't fail but didn't do well. And I fucking worked a lot and studied a lot so I don't understand. Will go see my exams after my class (in about 1h30min) and I will try to figure out where it went wrong and why. Hopefuly, I will be able to fix the situation for my finals. And nobody I know did well in their exams so they're all studying like crazy making themselves almost sick and no one wants to take a break, even at nite, so I'm alone every night. And I will be way much more alone for the weeks to come as finals exams are in 4 weeks and my bf has a new job with the most fucked up schedule you can have so we won't get to see each other that much for a while. And I can't stand being alone. I guess silence is just not my friend and I just don't feel ... confortable or I don't know being alone.

I'm also totally broke! No more money! Paycheck tomorrow (well tonight at midnight) but I have to pay my bills with it and that means no fun at all for another 2 weeks.

Had my graduate pictures shooting yesterday. The photographer was not really cool and I didn't really like him. And he showed me the last pic he took and it looked sooooooooooooo ugly! So I'm pretty scared to see the result


So those are a few reasons of why I feel so depressed and I have absolutely no control over all those situations so I just don't know what to do.

At least, my friend Juju is coming back home in maximum 2 weeks and I'm the one in charge for her welcome-home party!! And she still wants to be a sg so Vidocq and I will do her set probably! Which means we will be 2 cameras and will take the pics all together and mix them! She will be the hottest sg in da place!! And after that, if I get a set accepted (which I know will happen), we will do a multiple set together and it will be so hot!!! Let me give you just a sneak peek at what it could look like:



Isn't she gorgeous??? I love that girl to death!

And here's a "summary" of all my best friends, it's my desktop picture at the moment on my laptop so it cheers me up a lil bit everytime I look at it





( why won't it load the image completly???? I have to cut it and make it in two parts now!! )

Well, Let me know how y'all doing and keep in mind I love you much!

Lizy 6x6x6