This was my B-day memory for Devachka, who's thinking of movin' on:
Okay, so I used write poetic messages or stories to girls when they put up there sets. Sort of like little thank you's. Now a days I just have more life stuff and don't make a point of it. That said, if you're leaving, I will make time to tell you one.
Once...
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Okay, so I used write poetic messages or stories to girls when they put up there sets. Sort of like little thank you's. Now a days I just have more life stuff and don't make a point of it. That said, if you're leaving, I will make time to tell you one.
Once...
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Paintball is possibly one of the games ever invented. My new team has given me the name Lo Pan.
I got best kill for the day, with a face shot that actually put a little cut on my friend's nose.
My other friend David had best phrase of the day:
"I'm sorry, I couldn't hear your screams over the sound of my gunfire."
I got best kill for the day, with a face shot that actually put a little cut on my friend's nose.
My other friend David had best phrase of the day:
"I'm sorry, I couldn't hear your screams over the sound of my gunfire."
kenyon:
i WILL NOT stop fucking around! i won't. but i will rest all weekend long in order to give my 
heart a break.
paintball is for hoods. that's what my mom calls bad kids. her adjective is "hoodie," which is her way of saying shady.
hope your heart is getting a break.
heart a break.
paintball is for hoods. that's what my mom calls bad kids. her adjective is "hoodie," which is her way of saying shady.
hope your heart is getting a break.
I'm back in Seattle!!!!!!! THIS IS THE GREATEST PLACE IN THE WORLD!!! (for 2 weeks)
Last night a woman picked up on me at a bar. I politely told her I was only in town for the night, and that maybe it wouldn't be good idea to get into anything, good night and it was nice to meet you. BAM she breaks down on the old woman next to her as if I had just robbed her of forty years...
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kenyon:
wtf is that song you quoted in my journal? it's from some silly movie in a funny context, but i'm totally spacing it.
thanks for the birthday luv, dude.
more soon.
x.k
thanks for the birthday luv, dude.
more soon.
x.k
francesca:
Sounds like she has some serious issues! 
Now out of doubt Jake is mad. "By Jove that thunders what art thou fellow?", says him to me, laughing off any tear of joyless shock. Stands he in a doorway; looking at me through the agled reflection of mirror. "This is heavy business lay ahead for us!", he cries like a battle. I don't care though, let the drunkards shout and tell stories they'll...
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kenyon:
awesome ice-t medley. you rule with the irony/continuity factors.
kenyon:
ha-ha! easy to get presumptuous and brazen like that when you're two boys together. i learned this very quickly in stripclub 101, and though it pays much less, i always did prefer working peepshows where there's a DIVIDER between each 2 men, rendering each vulnerable and utterly overpowered.
We woke up this morning, and we were looking at eachother. "Fuck" thinks I, "This is definitely love."
kenyon:
Don't fuck it up, honey. Don't cheat on her. Suck it up.
Talk about unsolicited advice. Just being real. Cuz it sounds awesome, and you're lovely AND a guy, and you're not 17 anymore . . . I'll stop now. Hate me if you must.
Talk about unsolicited advice. Just being real. Cuz it sounds awesome, and you're lovely AND a guy, and you're not 17 anymore . . . I'll stop now. Hate me if you must.
kenyon:
k, i hear you.
she's smart to lean into it (as it were) while leaning back at the same time. at practice, my softball coach used to teach us outfielders to pause when a pop-fly was hit, and to lean back on our haunches to assess where the ball was going to land before just running in. that pause was crucial. (is it just me or is this paragraph rife with all sorts of potential dirty innuendo?) sounds like she's doing a version of that . . . still, i hope the Love prevails. life's fuckin nuts, that's why. we all need it if we can get it. the end.
she's smart to lean into it (as it were) while leaning back at the same time. at practice, my softball coach used to teach us outfielders to pause when a pop-fly was hit, and to lean back on our haunches to assess where the ball was going to land before just running in. that pause was crucial. (is it just me or is this paragraph rife with all sorts of potential dirty innuendo?) sounds like she's doing a version of that . . . still, i hope the Love prevails. life's fuckin nuts, that's why. we all need it if we can get it. the end.
It's raining in the wine country. The earth is drunk and littered with fools. I spent an hour in rush hour only to be bored with loved ones. I spent five minutes with this message as an excuse to be alone. Alone with all of you. My body is changing every second, is dying every time it feels more alive, is waiting to stop waiting,...
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kenyon:
dude, you cracking yourself up with the emoticons is good stuff.
bluetrust:
Ha, thanks!
What creeps you out?
kenyon:
my own behaviour, sometimes.
kenyon:
and the fact that it appears, by the looks of your journals, that i'm your sg stalker.
too emotionally exhausted to go deep, but thanks so much for your reaction to reading what i wrote. i really appreciate it. it's a good reminder to ME as well, because the body, no matter how many times it goes through a situation like that (it's happened before to a lesser degree and goddammit it COULD happen again, especially if i'm not careful to the immaculate degree, which i'm simply not), the body does not remember pain. this is why women traditionally have had more than just one child. they forget the agony, how giving birth feels like "having acid spashed on your genitals" (-ayunne halliday, one of your bretheren actors).
so yeah, it's good to remember.
are you still
?
i don't know what i am. i'm tired. i've been bitch-smacking myself around, jumping back into life too quickly and recklessly. i'm going to rest today if it kills me.
too emotionally exhausted to go deep, but thanks so much for your reaction to reading what i wrote. i really appreciate it. it's a good reminder to ME as well, because the body, no matter how many times it goes through a situation like that (it's happened before to a lesser degree and goddammit it COULD happen again, especially if i'm not careful to the immaculate degree, which i'm simply not), the body does not remember pain. this is why women traditionally have had more than just one child. they forget the agony, how giving birth feels like "having acid spashed on your genitals" (-ayunne halliday, one of your bretheren actors).
so yeah, it's good to remember.
are you still
?
i don't know what i am. i'm tired. i've been bitch-smacking myself around, jumping back into life too quickly and recklessly. i'm going to rest today if it kills me.
My heart is like a broken truck.
I suck on love like leaded gas,
I choke on the gritty oil of my own self doubt.
I've driven on every kind of surface,
the smooth new tarred roads,
shifted poorly about by youthful drivers,
and their teachers stammering feet.
I buckled and jack-knifed on rural gravel,
with the road weary non-union long haulers,
and we all...
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I suck on love like leaded gas,
I choke on the gritty oil of my own self doubt.
I've driven on every kind of surface,
the smooth new tarred roads,
shifted poorly about by youthful drivers,
and their teachers stammering feet.
I buckled and jack-knifed on rural gravel,
with the road weary non-union long haulers,
and we all...
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kenyon:
thanks for the thoughts on my column idea. still, the "cupid-arrow" of inspiration hasn't totally struck, you know? it skimmed my ear. i'm going to sleep on all this for a few more days.
meanwhile: dude, i'm so all for falling in love at impractical times. march 10th, eh? ask her if she has airies rising and a moon in leo with saturn nearbye (which means the leo part's a little strangled . . . by saturn's rings . . . if she has all that it will be hyper-creepy!)
you're such a sweetheart, sweetheart!
meanwhile: dude, i'm so all for falling in love at impractical times. march 10th, eh? ask her if she has airies rising and a moon in leo with saturn nearbye (which means the leo part's a little strangled . . . by saturn's rings . . . if she has all that it will be hyper-creepy!)
you're such a sweetheart, sweetheart!
kenyon:
i always wanted to do the laser eye thing, but am testing it out on guinea pigs like you, first.
i slept ALL DAY yesterday. and all last night, for that matter. i'm still tired. but cozy.
i slept ALL DAY yesterday. and all last night, for that matter. i'm still tired. but cozy.
In order:
11: Rock Climbing over the Russian River I fell over thirty feet into a pool of water no higher than my knees. Unharmed.
14: A shooting during some youth violence, I shit you not, an old school metal garbage can is coincidentally thrown between me and the gun during the brawl. If anyone saw me crying during the shock they never said. We...
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11: Rock Climbing over the Russian River I fell over thirty feet into a pool of water no higher than my knees. Unharmed.
14: A shooting during some youth violence, I shit you not, an old school metal garbage can is coincidentally thrown between me and the gun during the brawl. If anyone saw me crying during the shock they never said. We...
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kenyon:
ps - how does it feel to be so metro.
kenyon:
pss - i love being your street cred around here.
So something adventurous, stupid, humurous, painful, or in some other way interesting, ay? hmmm...I shot a naked girl in my room yesterday with her on-looking bF and we had a conversation about crotch make-up and how eventually it'll be the cause and spreader of a new STI (STD) and wipe out the porn star population.