chuba

my own behaviour, sometimes.

and the fact that it appears, by the looks of your journals, that i'm your sg stalker.

too emotionally exhausted to go deep, but thanks so much for your reaction to reading what i wrote. i really appreciate it. it's a good reminder to ME as well, because the body, no matter how many times it goes through a situation like that (it's happened before to a lesser degree and goddammit it COULD happen again, especially if i'm not careful to the immaculate degree, which i'm simply not), the body does not remember pain. this is why women traditionally have had more than just one child. they forget the agony, how giving birth feels like "having acid spashed on your genitals" (-ayunne halliday, one of your bretheren actors).

so yeah, it's good to remember.

are you still ?

i don't know what i am. i'm tired. i've been bitch-smacking myself around, jumping back into life too quickly and recklessly. i'm going to rest today if it kills me.