chrysea

I have so much on my mind right now. I have very little time to write it all out, though.

This week and half of next week will be spent in court. I got selected to be a juror....alternate...So, I have to be there for this damn case.

I went to Wesley's 1st birthday party yesterday. I hate getting around my family anymore. I look at myself and my cousin's and where we are in our lives and things weren't supposed to turn out like this. I will elaborate more later....

But another thing...my self esteme is so terribly low right now. My family doesn't help it in the slightest. Heh...Would be nice to have someone in my life who cared about me to tell me I was pretty every so often. I end up turning to strangers to get my brief self esteme boosts because everyone else in my life, especially my family, likes to make fun of my appearance, weight, body, etc.

Hell, even yesterday, though, I know she was just joking, she was insulting my parenting skills (not that I am a mother, but I was taking care of Wesley). He's 1, and he fell down...so she was like, "Chrissy would make a horrible mother..Can't even watch the baby without him falling down."

Anyway, I have to go.

~C~