What a fucking week.
1) I depend on a lot of people I've never even met face to face for my day job to be successful. I depend on them for supplying our company with the materials we need to work/make money with. This week felt as if I came close to losing my job becaseu these people weren't doing theirs. I dunno how much longer I'll have a cash flow (or health insurance!!
)
2) no health insurance means no shrink. One of my goals this year was to figure out why and fix 1) why I can't initiate a relationship 2) why I can't do what I KNOW I have to do 3) Why I'm turning into my Dad, when I've worked so hard at NOT becoming my dad. If I lose me job, then it'll be another year of wondering what the hell is wrong with my brain.
3) And, on top of that, it's official my computer's days are numbered. I don't know how many numbers there are left, but there aint much. It'll be a miracle if I hit "save entry" and I'll still have a connection to post this journal.
This is fun because I have two art projects that are past due and I have no reliable comptuer to finish them on. (Good news, the HARDDRIVES aren't fucked. I just need a better comptuer to plug them into.)
4) my car is sick too.
With these three things, I'm going to have to spend a lot of money soon. Car reparis, new mac, and the added looming possability that I could lose the one thing that would make PAYING for those two things possible. (I might be able to afford it, but then my Moving fund would be hurting/and/or drained.
It'll be an interesting few weeks, seeing how this plays out.
playing on iTunes right now: Talkin' the Blues John Lee Hooker
1) I depend on a lot of people I've never even met face to face for my day job to be successful. I depend on them for supplying our company with the materials we need to work/make money with. This week felt as if I came close to losing my job becaseu these people weren't doing theirs. I dunno how much longer I'll have a cash flow (or health insurance!!
)
2) no health insurance means no shrink. One of my goals this year was to figure out why and fix 1) why I can't initiate a relationship 2) why I can't do what I KNOW I have to do 3) Why I'm turning into my Dad, when I've worked so hard at NOT becoming my dad. If I lose me job, then it'll be another year of wondering what the hell is wrong with my brain.
3) And, on top of that, it's official my computer's days are numbered. I don't know how many numbers there are left, but there aint much. It'll be a miracle if I hit "save entry" and I'll still have a connection to post this journal.
This is fun because I have two art projects that are past due and I have no reliable comptuer to finish them on. (Good news, the HARDDRIVES aren't fucked. I just need a better comptuer to plug them into.)
4) my car is sick too.
With these three things, I'm going to have to spend a lot of money soon. Car reparis, new mac, and the added looming possability that I could lose the one thing that would make PAYING for those two things possible. (I might be able to afford it, but then my Moving fund would be hurting/and/or drained.
It'll be an interesting few weeks, seeing how this plays out.
playing on iTunes right now: Talkin' the Blues John Lee Hooker
the ice storm made it slippery, but the people from down here is what made it treacherous.
i handled it like a fuckin' pro!