chronas

There is nothing.
Absolutely no way for me to shake the thoughts of her from my mind.
Every moment.. every breath.. every pulse of what is left of my heart grieves for her touch.
And yet, vacancy is all I know. I dream of a time when I was engulfed by her tender soul.. and there is nothing I am able to do to replace those memories. Or rid myself of them.

I wish not to be this way. I want nothing more than to be on the desert island that she and I had always imagined going. Alone, the two of us. Enjoying every aspect of each other, and life as we love it.

I can no longer appreciate my existence in this moral shell without her. It is not the same.
It has been said that time fixes all problems, large or small...
A falsehood, I assure you. There is no length of time that will ever repair or erase the way that I love her.

Nor is there enough alcohol to make me forget.

I don't even believe that death would bring me the solace that I seem to be unable to find.

Still, I yearn not for death.. but for my life with her again... I do not desire an easy way out.. only to fix what I have since broken...