Saw my love off today, to go to a doc appt up in Atlanta. We're trying SO bard to find someone who can help her.

I should have gone, I'm not so sure how it came about that I didn't go.

I've been doing really great at work, with friends, so much is going well, but this part just never gets easier, and its like the more she needs me the more it hurts to know she's not going to be here for a few days. I need a vacation, I want to be alone for awhile, and not worry about anything.

Edited to add:
FUCK! I almost just murdered someone in the middle of Borders. Yeah....that was real fun. There's a story behind it, and maybe it'll go up in the Poly group, or maybe it''ll go up here, later, but right now....must break things.