christopher

The ancients called beauty the flowering of virtue. Who can analyze the nameless charm which glances from one and another face and form? We are touched with emotions of tenderness and complacency, but we cannot find whereat this dainty emotion, this wandering gleam, points. It is destroyed for the imagination by any attempt to refer it to organization. Nor does it point to any relations of friendship or love known and described in society, but, as it seems to me, to a quite other and unattainable sphere, to relations of transcendent delicacy and sweetness, to what roses and violets hint and fore-show. We cannot approach beauty. R.W. Emerson, Love

Ive started following Katie around the house, and Im growing to be irritated at myself for it. This passage seems to best qualify my feelings about why I seem to find myself growing increasingly frustrated over the pull this person has.

There is a job in London that I have found myself daydreaming about with a company my advisor works for. But, I wouldnt leave Katie, and I know Katie wouldnt leave her family, school, and friends and I dont think Id ever put her in a position to choose. Still, leaving the country and starting a dual citizenship sounds awefully appealing.

I think, that after much gnashing of teeth, editors are set up until the middle part of August and I can get back on the horse and start cursing to the interweb. No affirmations or excuses, though. And I know that I might have a few more sly-backhanded comments on the docket.

I also went through some profiles on myspace. I had never used it, but Katie seems to like it. I found a bunch of people whom were assholes in high school and it doesnt look like thats changed.I dont want to throw away that word asshole too lightly. They really were not very nice people. Confused, probably, but I hope that they are growing up bit by bit. There was one person that I knew never really got into school that is now in a PhD program. I think thats lit a fire under my ass. A Sterno-fire, but a fire nonetheless.