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Jacksonville, Florida

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Saturday Jul 10, 2004

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A quick flicker of the image and then theres shape Certainly the universe mustve been born on a hot night in the middle of summer just shortly after the advent of hot nights and summer a quick splash and then bam infinity intertwined with nothing in an unfathomably small foam awash with comings and goings at a rate faster than fast to the point where it all just sounds like a low hum and likewise, Ill take my own ho-hum place amidst it all on my own hot night in the middle of summer, sound asleep under cherry starlight with the moon writing sultry girlfriend poems to whoever wants to hear down here. Theres a hologram in my memory that my imaginary hands keep tracing again and again with the hope of breathing life into ghosts of ghosts those hips and those lips black marble eyes and the secrets always velveteen the Rosicrucian days reflected in mirror after mirror after mirror til I wonder if it ever actually happened in the first place. Love is an ethereal lace lulled to sleep by truth with her eyes closed and her soft mouth slightly open her teeth make the lightest click against my teeth with the ocean rolling out alpha rhythm love songs toes curling in wet sand hands on her hips super-ancient night. The instants forever lined with forever, scribbled down in the universes notebook in the middle of the most random page, keeping it locked and sealed and hidden in plain sight right where no one ever looks. (Genius, I tell you!) It fractures off from this now and this now and this now to the point where it no longer feels like now, much in the same way if I were to declare that This statement is occurring in the present moment. It was present at that moment, but has already become the past Much in the same way that that statement has already become the past And everything Im about to say is old the second I say it grasping and grasping and grasping, yet whatever I do, now remains elusive It all happened back then. So people split off and tribes are built and languages are formed the French are shooting porn way before their time black and white grain crazy filmstock of yesteryear and a countless number of books about blood and wine and magical searches through mysterious lands that couldnt be more ordinary if you ask me. Everyone wants a piece of what we were for all the wrong reasons so I never say a word. I manage to find a city of my own with buildings spiraling high into the night and a million jeweled lights lining the skyline with mystic serenity. There are people wandering down the boardwalk at the rivers edge staring out at party-boats lumbering by full of passengers on outdoor dancefloors with drinks and a rush of inaudible conversations that fade into the scenery. The waters curl and lilt a smooth slow-rock surrounded by a huge metropolis the concrete infrastructure of a sprawling city. Im nameless in the heart of downtown a random shadow slipping through the lateness without detection no care, no reason, no nothing. Even later still, in an elusive present moment, I materialize as a process a collection of synapses firing a complex combination of electricity holding together as form a conglomeration of wants and needs and feelings in a dark room where the blue light of a television illuminates other objects gathered symmetrically near it. My dead lost-love essence drives a string of random thoughts which the TV reflects sympathetically A quick flicker of the image and then theres shape

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chris_sick:
yeah, you didn't read the one i was referring to in my last post, but i'm glad you liked what you read. i keep going back to the idea of clocks because at my new job(which i like) we have clocks on every wall and if you're doing one of the more tedious jobs you start to notice that every five minutes you're looking at the clock literally. in an eight shift i don't even want to think about how many times i look at that fucking thing.

at one job a friend of mine wrote in magic marker on their wall clock "messiah". a strange egg, but a good one.
Aug 31, 2004
chris_sick:
heard about that'un. you need to write more, it will make you feel better. i'm a firm believer in "its never too late" but then again, i'm 23. the equation scares me. bukowski once wrote "think of how many times in your life you put on your underwear. horrible." and its true. the only blessing is we sleep- what is it a third? i think we sleep a third of our lives away. well most people. i apparently have forgotten how to be tired unless i'm at work.
Sep 1, 2004

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