I am feeling extremely disconnected as of late. My body seems way out of sync and i can't seem to focus and bring myself to change my diet and start stretching again. Normally I'm a beast at work, and nothing is ever too difficult, but recently the easiest stuff has been a real struggle.
Friday is the only real day i feel like myself for the most part, and thats probably just because its the start of the weekend. It's also bar day, so i get to see my bar family and have a good time. Usually during those good times i end up spending more money than i need to though. So in the end i go back for another hellish work week to pay for the damage to my bank account from the Friday before!
It has become really a boring existance, and i feel like i need someone to come along and knock me out of my stupor. I dont really see that happening though, the two girls i really care about right now are either married or have a long time boyfriend. The funny part is the married girl is a bartender at the pub i frequent on Fridays, and the other is a girl from work that i have hung out with and had a blast with the last few weekends.
My personality will be my downfall, because im so quiet and allow things to play out the way that they will. Which means i will probably never make something happen with either girl...