choker

Tribute to a friend, so since very few of you got my last blog (sarcasm fuckers look it up) i'd like to write about someone who means a lot to me, his name is Paul and if it wasn't for him I'm sure I'd be in jail,on drugs, or dead, so first things first I technically have Aspergers Syndrome ( I say technically cause compared to me in real life it doesn't seem like I have it ) but at that time it was suposedly ADD (back when every doctor was diagnosing any kids with slight attention problems or energy as ADD positive and filled em up with enough pills to take down a horse and half of hollywood) it was hard since kids aren't exactly the most sensitive people when it comes to difference, I mean come on how much did you call each other fag,queer,homo when you were young? so with my parents sitting there and wondering whats wrong with me and really having no answers I felt like the world didn't want me and that only made things worse. Religion,tried it, diet, tried it, even psychology tried it, but the problem is all these things don't exactly have the same effect on an adult when your 11 years old and claiming kids have problems cause there active or lack focus but I was stuck with it for a long time. Then something happened that would give me the chance at life I wanted, I had just gotten over the wrestling fad most of us had went through in the early 2000's (christ you know you feel old when you remember it was the early 90's) and had gotten into skateboarding and needed to get a decent set up, so where else but the skateshop and that's where I met Paul and my life got better the end....... or it would be if that's what happened the first time I met him he was weirded out by me (as most are) and it wasn't until my second visit that he started to realize just who I am and you know what? a guy who has dealt with a drunk mother no father and what would seem hopeless was blessed with caring neighbors,uncles who cared and having these two groups of people can really help, so it transsfered to me, and from there I learned to relax,not be so angry, and learn how to interact with people, granted there were times i lost it and others it felt like nothing changed but, it's been seven years and I can say if it wasn't for him they would have been worse, thanks Paul.

Bonus story: how I got my nickname choker

I choked on a piece of pizza in the skateshop Paul worked in and it stuck (no pun intended)