chok3

things to do today:
-put shit in attic
-paint garage floor
-go buy mig welder and plasma cutter
-dye hair
-get started on flyer for dumb SXSW party
-leave house tonight (no plans yet though)

im trying to stay busy. my mind has been a bit scattered lately and i think it will hellp me out a lot if i dont have too much time to think. i wish i was still fighting. its funny how a person might get all bitchy about how theres this little thing , or some stupid bullshit problem bothering you , silly stuff , like car trouble , or relationship problems , or money problems , etc. well now imagine you are physically unable to sit down. all that other shit seems irrelevant all the sudden. i CAN sit again. but what i really want to do is fight. and im horrified to start doing it again , because i dont want to end up like i was before. i need another outlet i guess , until i can get things together.