chixor

Now im scared.
Mostly of the unknown, because my future is in the hands of someone who may or may not like me.
I got a letter from Immigration today, They have sent my application to the local office here in Louisville
so that an appointment can be set up for an interview.
Also known as a hearing, which makes me feel guilty without being guilty of anything.
I dont know when the interview will be yet.
But that doesnt stop me from being scared.
Ive tried not to image any other alternatives to living the rest of my life the way its currently planned out.
I dont know what I will do should they decide they dont want me in the country.
This is going to bump up the lawyer bills too, I had just got them down to under $3000, but if he has to do more work, and
attend interviews its like $150-$180 bucks an hour.
Im crying, even though theres no point.
Sometimes I wish idiot features would grow up and see that what happened was probably for the best, and that we both
made mistakes that got us where we are today.
What about that christian forgiveness he preaches to everyone?
You know if it was me, no matter how much I hated someone, I wouldnt want them stuck in my situation and I'd do what I could to
help them out.
But its not me, and he's not a mature adult, and he would gladly see me burned at the stake before he'd help me out with this.

Going to go washmy face now and try to relax before the race tomorrow.