chixor

Im not going to lie.
Today has not been a good day for me and I am not in the best of moods.

I appreciate everyones wonderful response to the pictures I have been adding, and I will hopefully be able to give you a peek into the next set Im going to try and submit,...once my 3 month wait period is over of course...This one im a lot happier with so hopefully it will be accepted.

As for everything else, I dont know where to go right now.
My company keeps doing things that make it very evident they are going to outsource our jobs soon, despite denial from our management, so each new day brings the threat of my being jobless, which could then make me homeless because Im only 4 months since having bought my house.

People who are supposed to provide support, on my behalf arent doing thier job, leaving me more work that I cant do because im not allowed to do any travelling to my other locations to fix the problems in the first place.

Ive been such a loner for a long time, mainly because of the self defence way I try to prevent myself from being hurt by people.
Im one of these people who will give thier all for someone, then ends up being taken advantage of, so If I dont interact with people, I wont be let down or dissapointed.

But that gets lonely, and I try and talk to people I think have similar lifestyles / interests as I do. Hopefully Im just being polite, I think I am, I am nice, curteous and complimentary then it just feels like im talking to a brick wall.
So I give in, and I become self conscious trying to work out what I did/said wrong and the self doubt comes rolling back to knock me down.
I really think its time for me to hibernate.