chimericalme

Heh well, the insomnia is still pretty bad.. Actually, it's horrifically bad. So bad that on Mon. I really fucked up at work and I mean REALLY. I'm usually pretty aloof, alert and my brain is on its "on" position but this particular morning I dunno what the fuck happened. Anywho, I missed a very important detail to a study and fucked up. My co-workers tried to cheer me up saying "You've worked here three years and this is your first mistake. Cheer the hell up!" Well, no. The perfectionist in me says "Go the fuck home you asshead and think of the countless actions you SHOULD have taken." So I left work an hour early telling my boss I had to leave work early to reflect on what happened. She laughed at me giving the impression the mistake was miniscule in here eyes. But I don't really care how she see's it. All I know is that I need to get this insomnia taken care of fast so that this sort of mistake NEVER fucking happens again.

My OxyContin ran out......fuck.