I am so unbelievably moody. Here I was saying I wouldn't be updating this thing very often, and rather than update my LJ which would be my personal page, I'm updating here, where no one knows who I am.
Rain makes me happy, brings relief, Wind energises me, etc. I sound like an old school pagan, or a bad white-lighter. People make me angry...
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Rain makes me happy, brings relief, Wind energises me, etc. I sound like an old school pagan, or a bad white-lighter. People make me angry...
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One day I will understand, maybe just one day. I don't bother with phrasing things politely generally, I wonder sometimes how much it has to do with the ADHD and how much has to do with me.
Once I would have thought the former was totally responsible, then later on I would have thought the later, now I don't know.
Its hard to work out...
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Once I would have thought the former was totally responsible, then later on I would have thought the later, now I don't know.
Its hard to work out...
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fatality:
Alot of mental illness is deciding how much it defines you as a person. I know that I have been struggling with getting on some medications lately - deciding whether I want to or not - because I am somewhat afraid that it will take away a portion of me. And my OCD tendencies actually had the beneficial effect of helping me escape a rather dark childhood by focusing on school.
It takes a lot of thought and effort, but we're all venturing down the same road of understanding the self.
It takes a lot of thought and effort, but we're all venturing down the same road of understanding the self.
chilung:
Its one of the reasons I'm choosing not to be on the drugs that can "normalise" me, because then I wouldn't be me, I wasn't when I was on them, for crying out loud the prescibed solution to ADHD is an amphetamines basically in one form or another dexys or ritalon, not that I've got a problem with people using them of their own free choice(actually that's a bit of a fib, it depends on the person and the amount of usage), but they blinker, and I have no desire for that.
I'm going to Sigur Ros!
I'm going to Sigur Ros!
I'm going to Sigur Ros!
I'm going to Sigur Ros!
They better be good... Mum were fantastic but this is a bigger venue and I have shit seats, but fuck it, I'm going to have dinner at a good restaurant and then sit back close my eyes, and drift away...
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sodadreamer:
It's good that you speak about politics, it's refreshing to hear a voice on the forum with something reasonable to say. I was shocked by the amount of bigoted comments, I always thought that anyone who's discovered SuicideGirls and found it so amazingly beautiful and maginificent that they thought they should join, must be enlightened. Your comments re-inforced that theory just as I was losing hope. So thanks.
Now, let me rub in the fact that even though i'm a londoner, half of my family come from Bristol, you might even say PortisHead.
Now, let me rub in the fact that even though i'm a londoner, half of my family come from Bristol, you might even say PortisHead.
chilung:
Funny enough Portishead, named themsevles Portishead in revenge for the fact they had such a bad gig there (or grew up there and hated it), anyway the reason I don't want to post in the politics anymore is because the amount of bigoted commentary actually on both sides, but more on the muslim bashing and its gets into dogma and rhetoric, and when you try to ask a question you get stoney silence., and as nice as intelligent debate or open-minded thought would be, it apparently isn't in that part of the politics forum.
Give me a week.
Give me a week.
The universe has a sense of humour, a bored, direct cruel one but still a thoroughly amusing one. Just as I'm bitching about the lack of interesting people, someone from my past list of interests gives me a call. Lets just call her pseudo-date (because I took her out on one once, because she had been bitching about the lack of people interested in her,...
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fatality:
Thank you for you nice words.
I am a lunatic.
In the truest sense of the word.
Well as far as I know the truest sense of the word, I am affected by the phases of the moon, don't know how don't care, but I know that during the full moon, I am more physical more hungry, more basically horny and right now I'm fucking ravenous Everyone around me is fucking...
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In the truest sense of the word.
Well as far as I know the truest sense of the word, I am affected by the phases of the moon, don't know how don't care, but I know that during the full moon, I am more physical more hungry, more basically horny and right now I'm fucking ravenous Everyone around me is fucking...
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I just try to introduce a friend to suicide girls, don't know whether he fully got it.
His comment
"Where's the slash?" (i was showing Paz set, that he liked, and he kept looking for it, it was kind of funny, same with Ink's true romance set)
P.S. He is normally better than that and he did like some of the girls that I showed...
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His comment
"Where's the slash?" (i was showing Paz set, that he liked, and he kept looking for it, it was kind of funny, same with Ink's true romance set)
P.S. He is normally better than that and he did like some of the girls that I showed...
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medeia:
Thanxs for your comment on my set 
I just try to introduce a friend to suicide girls, don't know whether he fully got it.
His comment
"Where's the slash?" (i was showing Paz set, that he liked, and he kept looking for it, it was kind of funny, same with Ink's true romance set)
P.S. He is normally better than that and he did like some of the girls that I showed...
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His comment
"Where's the slash?" (i was showing Paz set, that he liked, and he kept looking for it, it was kind of funny, same with Ink's true romance set)
P.S. He is normally better than that and he did like some of the girls that I showed...
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Shtock! 
don't you hate it when something you thought was dead and buried turns up. A film I acted in a while ago, that I thought someone had hopefully screened once and let die didn't. Its apparently screening at MUFF this year,
eep...
oh well..
don't you hate it when something you thought was dead and buried turns up. A film I acted in a while ago, that I thought someone had hopefully screened once and let die didn't. Its apparently screening at MUFF this year,
eep...
oh well..
facet5:
'one thing that has been good and SHOULD be noted is the fact that the english are going into pandomonium about this'
beautiful
beautiful
chilung:
ouch! late night, must correct!
I've been fucking had,
I worked for the lowest of the lowest jobs, an outbound telemarketing job, and worked 44 hours, and got paid for 30, and instead getting the supposed pay I was meant to get I got paid only $15 an hour which was pre tax, and on top of which I've been cut off from my centrelink payments, which I needed right...
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I worked for the lowest of the lowest jobs, an outbound telemarketing job, and worked 44 hours, and got paid for 30, and instead getting the supposed pay I was meant to get I got paid only $15 an hour which was pre tax, and on top of which I've been cut off from my centrelink payments, which I needed right...
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My lack of impulse cost me today, because I waited for a friend, who umed then arred, then well, said no, after four weeks I got shitty tickets to Sigur Ros,
Impulse barrier down, fuck it, bought the fucking tickets anyway I'm going by my bloody self.
Impulse barrier down, fuck it, bought the fucking tickets anyway I'm going by my bloody self.
PS: I use my LJ and my SG journal for different things. My SG journal is for surface bullshit that doesn't really matter. My LJ is for the things I actually feel and want to say.