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chilung

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Sunday Aug 14, 2005

Aug 14, 2005
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One day I will understand, maybe just one day. I don't bother with phrasing things politely generally, I wonder sometimes how much it has to do with the ADHD and how much has to do with me.

Once I would have thought the former was totally responsible, then later on I would have thought the later, now I don't know.

Its hard to work out how much of my personality is defined by it, in what way does it affect me, etc. Its frustrating. I recognise some of behaviour as been typical ADHD behaviour, other parts, fortunately are just me been an arse, but then I didn't join this site, so I could bitch about my ADHD, I joined it because of the pretty pictures
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and the intros and videos that I still can't fucking download properly
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fuck I'm a permantly peeved mother fucker.
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Alot of mental illness is deciding how much it defines you as a person. I know that I have been struggling with getting on some medications lately - deciding whether I want to or not - because I am somewhat afraid that it will take away a portion of me. And my OCD tendencies actually had the beneficial effect of helping me escape a rather dark childhood by focusing on school.

It takes a lot of thought and effort, but we're all venturing down the same road of understanding the self.
Aug 15, 2005
chilung:
Its one of the reasons I'm choosing not to be on the drugs that can "normalise" me, because then I wouldn't be me, I wasn't when I was on them, for crying out loud the prescibed solution to ADHD is an amphetamines basically in one form or another dexys or ritalon, not that I've got a problem with people using them of their own free choice(actually that's a bit of a fib, it depends on the person and the amount of usage), but they blinker, and I have no desire for that.

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