chickwithwings

very soon I will be 23 and very soon after that i begin a whole new phase of my life in chicago pursuing work that lives up to my ideals and hopefully enriches me as a person. I'm really really excited. But sad about the people I have to say goodbye to and sad about leaving the teaching job I had for nearly two years. On top of it all I've been seeing a really amazing guy for about a month now and that's going to have to get put on hold. But I see future potential... eh... I need to not speculate so much about such things and just focus on doing what i need to do to become who i want to become and accomplish what I need to accomplish. But romance is always on my mind I can't seem to help it. Sometimes change is difficult for me mostly because it causes uncertainty which is very very difficult for me. I always try to control and predict things so I wont get hurt and it ends up just stressing me out and screwing things up. So I meditate and breathe and try to let go and just go where my path leads me. Still as I'm about to leave its scary to have to rush and say all those goodbyes and it's hard to let go of something wonderful that's still just beginning. time is passing so quickly. End of rambling for now.