Okay, let's pretend my last journal entry never happened, shall we? It was just my inferiority complex getting the best of me. Not to say I don't feel that way from time to time, but I know that sometimes I just perceive things entirely wrong. Anywayyy, to make a long story short, I'm okay now. I'm good. Phew.
So, I did almost everything I said...
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grrrrrrrr! god forbid i ever think anything's going right. just another reminder never to let my guard down. ever.
things i'm sick of:
-constantly feeling inferior
-trying to please people
-being taken advantage of
-hyposcrisy
-getting fucked over
i just don't want to feel anymore. sure, i won't experience joy and happiness...but i won't have to experience fucking pain either. and i experience a lot...
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things i'm sick of:
-constantly feeling inferior
-trying to please people
-being taken advantage of
-hyposcrisy
-getting fucked over
i just don't want to feel anymore. sure, i won't experience joy and happiness...but i won't have to experience fucking pain either. and i experience a lot...
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gaambit:
Sooo...I guess the shit did indeed hit the fan, huh?
You just gotta look out for Number One, is all.
I had posted this in my journal, but it seems appropriate here, as well.
"Instead of feeling alone in a group, it's better to have real solitude all by yourself. When I'm dealing with them, I swear, it's nothing but trouble. And I get nothing out of it, so it doesn't matter if I'm there or not, right?"
Hope the rest of the week sees you well
You just gotta look out for Number One, is all.
I had posted this in my journal, but it seems appropriate here, as well.
"Instead of feeling alone in a group, it's better to have real solitude all by yourself. When I'm dealing with them, I swear, it's nothing but trouble. And I get nothing out of it, so it doesn't matter if I'm there or not, right?"
Hope the rest of the week sees you well
so i'm back at school. my roommates and i went for lunch, that was pretty hot. right now i'm contemplating the rest of the day: hair dyeing/cutting? piercing? tattoo? shopping? sleeping? homework? (boo). i don't know yet. but i feel like i need something new. i'm anxious right now. getting some ink or putting another hole in my body may help with that. and if...
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gaambit:
tatoos or piercing - combat the pain with pain!
does the shit hitting always come with reorganization?
either way, glad to see things are a bit better.
does the shit hitting always come with reorganization?
either way, glad to see things are a bit better.
dahli:
hey you... like the idea of new mods!!
getting some ink tomorrow myself at adrenalin in brick... been planning it for 3 yrs! fianlly getting it- yay!!!
let me know what you end up doing!
good luck with eveything!
xoxo
getting some ink tomorrow myself at adrenalin in brick... been planning it for 3 yrs! fianlly getting it- yay!!!
let me know what you end up doing!
good luck with eveything!
xoxo
slowly getting back into the swing of things, but it's not easy. had an extremely important, inspiring conversation tonight. just another reminder of how short life is, how important it is to live in the present and not the past. i feel like that sounds so cliche, but that's only because it's so true. just had some amazing chai latte, rock! i'm most likely coming...
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datewitha38:
I don't even need to post this to know that I'm thinking of you and that I'm telepathically sending you messages that everything will be cool.
pandemonium:
whoo chai latte!!
everything will be okay with chai
everything will be okay with chai
at 10:30 am on march 4th, 2004, any sense of stability or safety that i've ever known since the day i was born was taken away from me. i know this was for the best. but it's so hard to look at things from that perspective. i've never been more proud of anyone in my life than my mother, and i can only hope that...
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maladjusted:
Im so sorry for your loss 
dahli:
i'm so sorry... ... ... ... i'm sure you made her proud though, and you have the rest of your life to keep doing so
i'm so sorry... ... ... ... i'm sure you made her proud though, and you have the rest of your life to keep doing so i suuuuuuck. really, i do. that thing i said, about how my procrastination was gonna bite me in the ass...well it did today. and i got really upset with everyone that crossed my path, like it was their fault and not my own. but the truth is, i'm just jealous of everyone else. i'm jealous of everyone that's so put together, that can separate work...
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cherrylove13:
hey! Sex toy parties are fun! I have one coming up too. In two weeks to be exact. Have fun, I'm sure it'll cheer you up. Oh, and as far as those people that have it all put together. Ignore them, they are most likely MORE fucked up then you ever thought you were. They are just trying to fool themselves and everyone else. Either that or they are on Porzac... 
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deathcabforuglie:
hey now...only the pj bottoms?...maybe if you're good..
xoxo,
j
xoxo,
j
i had a pretty decent day. barely got my homework done for my 8:30 am class (too fucking early to be awake on a monday morning), went to my 10 am, but skipped my 11:30, did laundry and other productive things, read, slept, and met eric at dinner. then we took some hot pictures and later went to dunkin donuts. of course i didn't do...
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deathcabforuglie:
your mixed tape...it's still on the way...i just have to have a good amount of time with which to create....these things take time with me..cause i do like a booklet and everything...you'll like it...just remember the deal..
xoxo,
j
xoxo,
j
deathcabforuglie:
=).. i mean..when you're looking forward to something you want it right away...it's understandable...
xoxo,
j
xoxo,
j
yay for pay day! just picked up fellini's la strada (the criterion collection DVD), so that's pretty hot. for the record, this site rocks. i've met so many nifty people pandemonium, datewitha38, and i are all drinkin at a friend's place tonight so that should prove to be good times. and wish pandemonium a happy birthday, tomorrow he turns 21 
...and now it's...
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pandemonium, datewitha38, and i are all drinkin at a friend's place tonight so that should prove to be good times. and wish pandemonium a happy birthday, tomorrow he turns 21
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dexter666:
you're nifty.
yesuslave89454:
OK...
damn you're cute.
damn you're cute.
i'm sad, and no, i don't think you can help me.
but thanks for asking.
but thanks for asking.
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deathcabforuglie:
haha..you're so cute...i mean...you said you were sad in your last entry...it's the least i could do to make you happy...and everyone could use a hug...so you're on sista...
xoxo,
j
ps- only modest mouse songs?...or a little of everything i like..cause i can definitely come up with all my favorite MM songs...i'll just surprise you...
xoxo,
j
xoxo,
j
ps- only modest mouse songs?...or a little of everything i like..cause i can definitely come up with all my favorite MM songs...i'll just surprise you...
xoxo,
j
deathcabforuglie:
not a problem...i shall work on it..i'll let you know when i'm ready...
xoxo,
j
xoxo,
j
happy valentine's day everyone i was never big into valentine's day, but it's kinda nice to know you're loved, even if it's one day out of the year, haha. i have a stalker...all these years i practically wished i had a stalker. now i have one and i'm kinda grossed out. he came into my job tonight as a customer and made all these sexual...
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i was never big into valentine's day, but it's kinda nice to know you're loved, even if it's one day out of the year, haha. i have a stalker...all these years i practically wished i had a stalker. now i have one and i'm kinda grossed out. he came into my job tonight as a customer and made all these sexual... Read More
dahli:
hey- saw your comment for me, i've only been in forked river for 4 years - 2 full time, so i never went to school here, any way see you around here or fr sometime
welcome to sg
welcome to sg
reverendrock:
did you not like the flowers, i'm sorry
(i'm normally bad about mailing things..i'll make the tape for sure..i just generally never get it out of my house and into the mailbox)...
xoxo,
j
*Koz*