Wednesday Jan 11, 2006

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HAPPY FRIDAY THE 13TH biggrin

*1/12/06* This was my day:

Me: Im sorry, as of the new year, and after the Medicare Plan D took over for your Health Net, this medication is no longer covered.

Customer: WHAT!? No! I just got this medication last week under this...do it again.

Me:...no, its still not covered and I dont see you getting this at all this month.

Customer: No! do something and get this covered..I JUST had this and it was okay. Call someone!

Me: This is under the NEW Medicare Plan D mam, not the regular Health Net. You had this last year while still under normal health Net coverage.

Customer: Do something then! Just get it done!

Me: Mam, please dont yell at me...im doing all I can!

Customer: Fine...Then do your job!!

Me=AAARRRGGG!!!!!
*watery eyes* I hate getting yelled at for something thats competley out of my hands. I know its life and thats my job but shit man...it gets ridiculas sometimes.
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I awoke from this dream last night. So fucking scared. I stayed awake for about an hour (clock said 5am) staring at the ceiling. I had this fear of "them" catching me and not being able to get away. My dream was that I had lost someone, and I took a figureing off the stand and held it. Other looked at me, wondering what I was going to do. I then ran and shut the doors to my room. (Which was my grandpartents house in Torrance). I had to close 3 doors and each door had at least 5 locks on it. They all chased after me. I graped the figureing and 2 packs of cigaretts, left my jacket. or some reason the cold didnt bother me, and I poped out the screen to the window and jumped out. I started running as fast as I could. (I have no problems running in dreams). then I woke up....shivering, not from cold but my stomach was in knots. I needed to talk to someone, anyone...but again, it was 5am. SO I layed there and eventually feel back alseep.


WARNING this is a rant update


SPOILERS! (Click to view)

1. Work is driving me up the fucking wall. My coworkers are cool people. But just dont seem to understand that things need to get done in a timely manner. and that if I have 20 prescriptions in front of me, on the phone while taking a new prescription from a customer....I CANT HELP YOU OUT RIGHT NOW. If I get a call from a customer that I did not work on, and have no clue what they are talking about, saying they dropped off a prescription and I have no record of it. PLEASE DONT SHU ME OFF AND MAKE ME DEAL WITH IT. I WILL tell the customer that I have no idead what they are talking about and to call back later. I get fed up too.

2. If you are a rude customer, and have an attitude with me. You prescription will go in the back of my stack to be processed and I may forget about it..even after our normal 2 hour wait. PEOPLE PLEASE, BE NICE TO US. hehe

3. Im freaking out again about my living situation. My roomate informed me as of last night, once our lease is up its most likey going to month-to-month. A few months after that she is most likey moving to Arizona. Me=Fucked. I cant afford a place on my own. Maybe a shitty one bedroom somewhere, with no cable, internet etc... frown Sacrafices...okay. But I dont know many people at all. And dont meet people very well. Im a shy person with a lot of insecurities. I dont know....we'll see what happends.

4. I fucked up my hair dyeing it back to black. The top is blue and the back is this dingy grey/brown. Its a big ball of mess. Stupid bleach fucked me with something fierce.

5. My account just went overdrawn....it hasnt done that in....god...at least 2 years and I was so proud! Damn it. I just paid a lot of bills and wasnt paying attention. My fault completley. Payday is tomorrow and I still have a paycheck I havent cashed in my wallet. But still....should pay so much more attention to details sometimes. And I have to start paying people back for money they let me before hand. Thank you again.

6. Personal rant..boys might want to skip. Ive been on my period for about a month now. I dont get it, Ive been consistant with my pill. Stupid pill. Supposed to get rid of this. Its really really light, and not a bother. But I still get the fucking stomach ickys and cramps. Not to mention the mood swings and irritablities. Man...this has got to stop.

7. Keep getting into fights with my roomate too. Over stupid shit thats getting my nerves. My shampoo is getting moved around and probably being used. My loofa was on the tub floor with hair on it (not mine hair [and I keep the loofe hung on the showerhead, hard to accidently knock off] ) . Kids keep getting in my drawers and bathroom cabnits and throwing my stuff around cause the other roomate doesnt keep the bathroom door shut. Waking up to a hot ass room cause someone left the heater on all night, again...even after a huge electric bill. Little things....are pissing me the fuck off.

8. Among other things....depressed and stressed and trying to figure things out still. Missing friends around and family around and lots of things in general. Im thinking about getting back into counceling, but I dont have health insurance from my work anymore. Something else I cant afford. But I really enjoyed going when I did. Just a non-biased person to talk to.

9. My car's still messed up. I really need to get that oil changed. And my routers/breaks fixed. Damn.

10. 2 weeks ago was the 1 year aniversary of my Grandfathers death. 13 year aniversary of my dads on Nov. 11th.

11. I really have to figure out whats going on in my head. Everything seems to be crashing down, & even though its not in reality....my head keeps telling me its all going down hill fast. This is not how to start off the new year people!

12. Havent been sleeping well either. Fucked up dreams and waking in the fear. Even thought you KNOW it was a dream.

13. Wow... im such a happy person and it such a loving mood. Why wouldnt anyone want to me around me!? tongue This will all pass. As does everything and every time this happeneds. Just a bitch to get over it is all. Gotta keep my head on straight and focus on the good that will come. I can do it! haha oh man... I know people have harder problems to deal with then I do though.

14. Oh yeah, and our phone got shut off due to well, not paying it.




-Chi

naulite:
:warm furry hugs and kitten kisses:
Feel loved, K. Cuz you are.

Hang in there, keep yer chin up, and just take it one day at a time. That's usually what I do.

oh.. and the twitchin is from a nerve that seems to want to be noticed the past couple days. Was in a fight in high school and got smacked in the face pretty good. Damaged a nerve just under my left eye and it makes it twitch every now and again. Not the whole cheek either, and not a big huge twitch, just that lil fleshy part just below the bottom eye lid... it likes to go twitchy twitchy every so often just as a reminder. lol

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