so i just got a note from Wenzdai that she got me a bottle of sand to send to me!!! And Glenn kissed it for me!!!!! I miss my friends in Cali. I told her that i'm gonna set the bottle in my living room. Then, one day when i get a crazy hair, I'm gonna fill my bathtub up with ice cold, snot freezin water, put on my wetsuit, dump the sand down it, grab my iron board and pretend I'm surfing in my bathtub. ...but i have a feeling it just won't be the same...I have been told however, that there is surf in Corpus Christi....I KNEW IT!!!! I KNEW THERE WAS SURF IN TEXAS SOMEWHERE!!!! i told my mom that i would find it and i'll be damned...i did!! It is just a matter of getting there...3 hour drive with my man and a longboard in a car the size of a flea does not sound fun...at all.
Last weekend Jeff and I went to Austin again. So I sat through 4 hours of blood letting, toe curling hellish pain and got my backpiece AND my half sleeve outlined. I'm really excited. I can't wait to see it finished!!! i'm going back not this weekend but next to start shading. Kinda feel bad sometimes though, because I have not yet found a job and Jeff pays for just about everything for me right now.
Which leads me to my mental montage....I get so frusterated sometimes with this boy. I love him to death but the things he says hurt me. I know he doens't mean to, but it happens. Mostly i feel that his soldiers and his job come first and I disagree with that. He also goes through great efforts to hide the fact that I am a sergeant in the National Guard. I kinda understand his issue with him being an officer, but I am not active duty. It is incredibly difficult for me to hide who i am. He also doesn't want me to wear any of my SG gear around his soldiers. SG is a part of me as well. Maybe i'm just depressed from being away from home. I really don't fit in here. Hell, i hardly even leave the house anymore. The college here sucks, too. they don't offer shit for classes. I mean, they could at least offer Shit 101... So i thought about cosmetology school and well, by the time i finish that, we will be going back to cali. the other day, jeff asked what he could do to make me feel better...I told him to poke my eyes out...fukker didn't do it.
just said "how bout i kiss the hell out of you instead..." he's a great guy, i just feel like i get put second or even third sometimes. I never do that to him...
Last weekend Jeff and I went to Austin again. So I sat through 4 hours of blood letting, toe curling hellish pain and got my backpiece AND my half sleeve outlined. I'm really excited. I can't wait to see it finished!!! i'm going back not this weekend but next to start shading. Kinda feel bad sometimes though, because I have not yet found a job and Jeff pays for just about everything for me right now.
Which leads me to my mental montage....I get so frusterated sometimes with this boy. I love him to death but the things he says hurt me. I know he doens't mean to, but it happens. Mostly i feel that his soldiers and his job come first and I disagree with that. He also goes through great efforts to hide the fact that I am a sergeant in the National Guard. I kinda understand his issue with him being an officer, but I am not active duty. It is incredibly difficult for me to hide who i am. He also doesn't want me to wear any of my SG gear around his soldiers. SG is a part of me as well. Maybe i'm just depressed from being away from home. I really don't fit in here. Hell, i hardly even leave the house anymore. The college here sucks, too. they don't offer shit for classes. I mean, they could at least offer Shit 101... So i thought about cosmetology school and well, by the time i finish that, we will be going back to cali. the other day, jeff asked what he could do to make me feel better...I told him to poke my eyes out...fukker didn't do it.
just said "how bout i kiss the hell out of you instead..." he's a great guy, i just feel like i get put second or even third sometimes. I never do that to him...
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clementine:
I know the way that feels...my ex always made sure that people didn't see me for the person I am eventually I felt like nothing but arm candy!! It sucks and is so hurtful but they never realize! Don't worry lady things will work themselves out but in the mean time always remember that you are awesome
element_103:
Such are the milestones of marrying an officer and having an officer marry an NCO. You are correct though, that the regulations do not allow same-unit bondings, the new regs say officers can't marry NCO's (active duty), but no regs state it is a NO GO between military branches (active duty, NG, reserves, etc.). 