I am sitting here, in the middle of nowhere texas at 440 am wide awake. For some reason, it has been one of those nights where i just could not get tired and sleep. I haven't had one of these in awhile and it really sucks. maybe it is because Jeff had Staff duty (that is when he has to sit at a desk and basically answer the phone all night for soldiers calling home in Iraq) or if it is because lately i can't remember to take my Zoloft. When that happens too much, It causes one to become flooded with the bad emotions that it is working to correct and it sucks. basically you relapse into depression. I gotta remember to take my little happy pills.
My dog is happily asleep on the new handmade bed Jeffy bought for him. We went to this little country fair thingy where all the old ladies sit around makin random ugly shit and stare at the young people....man, you shoulda seen em stare at me!!! hee hee. Well, amidst the old ladies, we found a woman and her daughter who make these nice dog beds and sell em pretty damn cheap. and it's washable!!! YYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYY for that!!! Maybe if i lay on the dog bed, i'll fall asleep too. dammit...insomnia is horrid.
Or, maybe it is because i cant seem to clear my mind of the impending doom that awaits me here in texas...death...by boredom. No, i won't get to die interestingly...it will be from boredom. I can't find a job, can't find a photographer, can't find any female type friends, (although ]Coriander and i are gonna hang out on friday. I think that will be fun. She seems really nice and i'm stoked about meeting another female friend who is also an SG.
and I think i have developed an addiction to ebay. I have found the most kick ass clothes on there...but i can't buy any of em because i dont' have a job and i already spent my spending money buying cute stuff from other SG's. damn. I miss Cali. Can some one just....I dunno....poke me in the eye or something?
My dog is happily asleep on the new handmade bed Jeffy bought for him. We went to this little country fair thingy where all the old ladies sit around makin random ugly shit and stare at the young people....man, you shoulda seen em stare at me!!! hee hee. Well, amidst the old ladies, we found a woman and her daughter who make these nice dog beds and sell em pretty damn cheap. and it's washable!!! YYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYY for that!!! Maybe if i lay on the dog bed, i'll fall asleep too. dammit...insomnia is horrid.
Or, maybe it is because i cant seem to clear my mind of the impending doom that awaits me here in texas...death...by boredom. No, i won't get to die interestingly...it will be from boredom. I can't find a job, can't find a photographer, can't find any female type friends, (although ]Coriander and i are gonna hang out on friday. I think that will be fun. She seems really nice and i'm stoked about meeting another female friend who is also an SG.
and I think i have developed an addiction to ebay. I have found the most kick ass clothes on there...but i can't buy any of em because i dont' have a job and i already spent my spending money buying cute stuff from other SG's. damn. I miss Cali. Can some one just....I dunno....poke me in the eye or something?
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and also, you shouldn't sell that red dress, you look so cute in it.
That and the ebay addiction, i go back and justify my existence and prove to myself that i am a good person by going back and reading my positive feedback. My theory is that if all these sellers on Ebay think i am a good person, maybe i really am!