chexy

*sigh* I don't want to sound like I'm always depressed, I am usually very happy. It seems like now, I can't be happy, and I think I am happy, it just goes away. I used to be carefree, happy, and fun loving. I would never cry, and no one could make me feel bad about myself. Now, all I do is worry what people think of me(family, co-workers, and friends more than anything) I am not as confident with myself, and always second guess myself. I really like someone, and I haven't been in a relationship in awhile, but it seems like I always do something wrong...I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I thought that I finally have found happiness but I guess I was wrong. I was just plagued with more self doubt, and sorrow. Nothing seems to go right anymore, I am like the barer of bad luck. I bring bad luck to myself and everyone around me...sorry for the rant, just needed to get this off my chest.