Who thought that being good would be so hard.
Finally got to see my friend again after about three weeks. Its a really long story but we ended up being a little more than friends. Her boyfriend found out and the friendship between her and I got hurt a bit. She pretty much had to cut off communication with me in order to keep her boyfriend. After talking we agreed that we are good. I told her I was really afraid that I would lose her completely after all this. She said she could never turn her back on me. That made me feel really good.
Now this is where things start to get complicated, again. I really did look to her as just a friend and was now happy she was happy. (see the previous entry) Well Tuesday night I get a text from her saying she wasnt happy and that she wanted to meet up and talk. So we did Wednesday night. No need to discuss here what we talked about, its none of your damn business
. One thing is for certain, there are definitely feelings between us still, we both agreed on that. Still a lot of flirting, talks of the night we spent together. I told her if I said anything that made her feel uncomfortable or pushing the boundaries, to stop me. She said "I know" and left it at that. We both agreed that its going to be hard not crossing "that line" again. But she and I agree we cant do anything right now, given her current situation.
I really want to be good, but damn, its hard.
Finally got to see my friend again after about three weeks. Its a really long story but we ended up being a little more than friends. Her boyfriend found out and the friendship between her and I got hurt a bit. She pretty much had to cut off communication with me in order to keep her boyfriend. After talking we agreed that we are good. I told her I was really afraid that I would lose her completely after all this. She said she could never turn her back on me. That made me feel really good.
Now this is where things start to get complicated, again. I really did look to her as just a friend and was now happy she was happy. (see the previous entry) Well Tuesday night I get a text from her saying she wasnt happy and that she wanted to meet up and talk. So we did Wednesday night. No need to discuss here what we talked about, its none of your damn business
. One thing is for certain, there are definitely feelings between us still, we both agreed on that. Still a lot of flirting, talks of the night we spent together. I told her if I said anything that made her feel uncomfortable or pushing the boundaries, to stop me. She said "I know" and left it at that. We both agreed that its going to be hard not crossing "that line" again. But she and I agree we cant do anything right now, given her current situation.
I really want to be good, but damn, its hard.