Today is a worse day than the last few.
I finally gave what the wonderful Joliette calls "the no contact clause" to M.
I told him that I can't talk to him anymore, that I don't want to hear about him missing me, or me being his "fav person in the world," because it doesn't change the fact that he doesn't feel the same way I do.
He doesn't love me the same way I love him.
It makes me sad, because I think part of me was hopeing he'd go kicking and screaming, but it was more of a wimper. But in the end I know that it's for the best, and that no matter how much wishful thinking I have in my mind, the fact of the matter is we've broken up 3 times this past year and a half and it's probably run it's course now. So the only logical thing to do at this point is to try and move on.
I think I just really want to be alone. For a long, long time. I have my puppy, and my friends. I have a new job to focus on. And as Joliette carefully reminded me, I have my health to look after and consider. I don't want to be that girl who is sad all the time, and doesn't do things in her life because she's lovesick over someone who doesn't care about her.
I keep telling myself that good things will come to me if I'm patient. That's true right?
Sometimes it's hard to stay positive...
Hope all of you are having a good Monday, I'm contemplating going to the gym, or putting my membership on hold. (I really need to focus on training Iggy right now.)
I wish I could do everything.
Wouldn't life be so grand?
xoxox
-Chevvy
I finally gave what the wonderful Joliette calls "the no contact clause" to M.
I told him that I can't talk to him anymore, that I don't want to hear about him missing me, or me being his "fav person in the world," because it doesn't change the fact that he doesn't feel the same way I do.
He doesn't love me the same way I love him.
It makes me sad, because I think part of me was hopeing he'd go kicking and screaming, but it was more of a wimper. But in the end I know that it's for the best, and that no matter how much wishful thinking I have in my mind, the fact of the matter is we've broken up 3 times this past year and a half and it's probably run it's course now. So the only logical thing to do at this point is to try and move on.
I think I just really want to be alone. For a long, long time. I have my puppy, and my friends. I have a new job to focus on. And as Joliette carefully reminded me, I have my health to look after and consider. I don't want to be that girl who is sad all the time, and doesn't do things in her life because she's lovesick over someone who doesn't care about her.
I keep telling myself that good things will come to me if I'm patient. That's true right?
Sometimes it's hard to stay positive...
Hope all of you are having a good Monday, I'm contemplating going to the gym, or putting my membership on hold. (I really need to focus on training Iggy right now.)
I wish I could do everything.
Wouldn't life be so grand?
xoxox
-Chevvy
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trauma:
and never forget, you're too cute and sweet to be sad all the time. You are a total sweetie, I just wish I was in the great white north right now to give you a big hug, but work constrains me to some stupid airport in L.A. 
and never forget, you're too cute and sweet to be sad all the time. You are a total sweetie, I just wish I was in the great white north right now to give you a big hug, but work constrains me to some stupid airport in L.A. 
parabolafortysix:
*big, big hugs* The days will get better. You will find someone who will return love for love. Take your time and be that wonderful you that you are.