cheshirecat

I got a car ....Yay.......yeah now petroleum enslaves me BUT I can do all those things like going out for auditions ,put the large canvas in the back seat..............and so my continueing struggle of acceptance over my X goes on getting a little better as time fades to a new dawn.............and yet I still want to ravage her when I see her ............my emotions R so conflicting I love her I hate her I lover her I hate her.........I find it completely mind boggling to define her and whether or not she is being a bitch to me and using me or not.........I think deep down she is good and like all things I wish I could revisit the past and maybe of done things different..........I miss her still and look forward to a friendship even though I find myself restraining my emotions when it comes to certain questionable things............oh I tripped on mushrooms last week ;that was fun ,my place(if you could see it )is made for a tRiP................