cheshirecat

so i am still getting up at 2 in the afternoon .....i just cannot shake it there is too much to do at night....saw a good closing act at Spaceland ...........went somewhre very familiar in my dream this morning.........still searching but not exactly sure for what ,maybe when i start going to CalArts i will feel better .....always feel better when painting or creating something ,it is the down time that gets to me because I feel like i am accomplishing nothing......now i remember my dream it was a conglomeration of all the places i had lived before like all the neighborhoods meshed together in some sort of puzzle along with the people......then strangely i become aware of my dreaming and it begins to erode like a scene from the matrix and suddenly i am completely aware of myself and that I am sleeping as if looking in on a reflection of myself .