chesca

Wow it has been a little while! I've been lurking now and then but I've not had the time to participate in an online community so I've not seen the point in updating.

I can't help myself though, I don't want to bore my friends with my stupidness. I'm getting giddy like a teenager about a guy at work. Months ago I thought he liked me and it scared the bejesus out of me - I've spent too much time distracting myself with guys who are definitely no good for me someone like him being interested was too real, too full of potential!

But work has been stressing me out less, I'm moving to a much nicer flat on Sunday and I've started to sort out my head a bit. I've somehow turned into a massive pessimist and it's not healthy thinking that way. Stopping the thoughts is going to take time but I can recognise them and try to ignore them so that's a good start.

And now I have this sweet, funny, amazingly intelligent guy interested in me and... I'm still scared but I'll get over it! Still massively early days though, and because of work we're both being a bit cautious and I'm glad, it's more romantic this way! I can't help but get stupidly shy and not know what to say to him which is very unlike me! I've been caught smiling to myself a lot and daydreaming... the girl's got it bad

Who'd have thought inviting me to a rugby match was the way to my heart! lol