chesca

There a lot of things I've been mulling over recently. My own naivety especially. Until fairly recently I'd let my sense of loneliness make me feel like I was failing in some area of my life. That because i didn't have this tight circle of friends like some people I know that I was inadequate. Shockingly it's taken me too long realise that I need to stop looking at the negative and focus on the positive. My independence, my strength and my diverse set of friends! I'm under no illusions though, I do not believe that I'm striking out on some untrodden path and I know there are a lot of other things I could be doing with my life if I had the balls to take the chance. For now though I'm content in trying to experience some stability in my life at the same time knowing I'm not staying in my comfort zone.

One thing I still torment myself with is relationships. Where do you draw the line between unrealistic expectations and just settling for something? Not that I'm saying that I'm considering the later but I now keep my feelings under such tight control that I tend to overthink things instead!