Urgh another rubbish update I'm afraid. Barely find enought time to unwind properly these days let alone make my thoughts a little more comprehensible!
* My brother has had an accident climbing. Lots of broken bones but he's ok, it could've been A LOT worse. Still, he's not going to be able to get around that much for a long time.
* New job is still going fairly well but I'm not really feeling it's me. I don't miss retail, but I do miss being able to obssess over my books.
* I'm finding visiting my detainee very challenging (ok just damn right hard) it's hard to find things to talk about when he doesn't seem to be interested in a whole lot, except getting out of course, understandably. There's only so much you can talk about with that though. Finding keeping the boundaries hard too, even with a fictional boyfriend!
* And so onto my love life. Ha. Why do I knowingly go after a guy I know has no interest in commitment? I'm an idiot, and yet I can't help myself. I find him utterly irrestible and I know I'm falling for him, I look in his eyes and I feel so vulnerable. Yet if he gave me what I wanted I know I'd probably freak out. I can't seem to trust anyone not to put me through a lot of hurt and I wish I could move on from that.
* Other than that, going to an Amnesty demonstration Wednesday in support of the Tiananmen Mothers
* My brother has had an accident climbing. Lots of broken bones but he's ok, it could've been A LOT worse. Still, he's not going to be able to get around that much for a long time.
* New job is still going fairly well but I'm not really feeling it's me. I don't miss retail, but I do miss being able to obssess over my books.
* I'm finding visiting my detainee very challenging (ok just damn right hard) it's hard to find things to talk about when he doesn't seem to be interested in a whole lot, except getting out of course, understandably. There's only so much you can talk about with that though. Finding keeping the boundaries hard too, even with a fictional boyfriend!
* And so onto my love life. Ha. Why do I knowingly go after a guy I know has no interest in commitment? I'm an idiot, and yet I can't help myself. I find him utterly irrestible and I know I'm falling for him, I look in his eyes and I feel so vulnerable. Yet if he gave me what I wanted I know I'd probably freak out. I can't seem to trust anyone not to put me through a lot of hurt and I wish I could move on from that.
* Other than that, going to an Amnesty demonstration Wednesday in support of the Tiananmen Mothers
Sign the petition if you're interested.
And I shall be celebrating my birthday at the weekend with... surprise, surprise.... cocktails! 
Never know, I might get sacked tomorrow and have more time on here. For now though, hope everyone is doing well 
Hope your brother is ok too, that sounds nasty.
As to the love life if we could control who we were attracted to the world would be a very scary place.