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Yet another member of staff has hurt themselves, not at work I hasten to add. It means that I've been moved from being a ground foor person to dividing my time between first and second. I never have liked being on these floors I always put it down to not knowing the sections well enough but I've realised it's not that at all. It's something much more dreadful, I've got no-one to talk to! Ok so I know there are customers, but I can hardly complain to a customer about another customer now can I?! Oh well I guess it could be worse, although I'm not sure how

Went to the Amnesty International conference in London yesterday which was very interesting. Met some nice people and thought the talk given on 'Stop Violence Against Women' campaign was very informative and made me really think about the way I approach issues and seeing their true complexity. I have to admit I'm new to a lot of it so my first step in making more of a difference has been predominantly informing myself. logical I know but I get a little frustrated! I'm also kind of amazed it's taken me until now to really get active about human rights issues. I've certainly been aware of human rights abuses and I've cared, but I rarely transferred that caring into something more useful. Oh well at least I'm changing now.

Certainly distracts from the frustration I feel at home. In reality it properly shouldn't give me much hope, if I can't get my own mum to change her behaviour and stop antagonising my ill brother how the hell do I expect to change things going on round the other side of the world? For the sake of my own sanity it gies me something else to drive at and work on and have some affect on even if it's only raising others awareness. Not like the brick wall that is mum who can't see that she EVER does anything wrong. When we've been told creating a calm family life will provide a positive environment and increase his chances of his improving whereas stressful situations will increase chances of a relapse what does she do? She asks aggressive questions, has disgusted looks on her face any time he says something slightly odd (which can be quite frequently) and generally handle situations all wrong! It's tiring, and frustrating and kills any hope of change.

On a lighter note I've started going to yoga, only been the once so far, and it has already made a difference! Well actually I do feel rather knotted up again but for the first couple of days after I did feel way better! Not quite on par with post-thai massage but still a vast improvement. With any luck it'll also help to tone my tummy a bit as I'm still too much of a lazy cow to actually do any exercise other than run up and down the stairs in the bookshop!