I've been feeling really down in the dumps today. I spoke to my parents last night coz my older brother finally had an appointment with a doctor (do not get me started on the NHS! 
). He's been suffering from mental health problems ever since his best friend (our family friend) committed suicide 5 years ago. He diagnosed him as suffering from asperages syndrome and from the brief understanding of it explains some of his behaviour... but not all. I dunno if this is gonna be another start to countless mis-diagnosis, more stupid drugs and fuck ups.
I don't know why I'm quite so upset, i think it just brings up everything we've been through. Plus I'm stressing about deadlines, I'm likely to drive myself loopy. My bf thinks it would be a good idea to go back to the counsellor's. I'd already been considering it but this time something's holding me back. I probably just don't want to admit I can't cope. I just wish someone could help him properly.
). He's been suffering from mental health problems ever since his best friend (our family friend) committed suicide 5 years ago. He diagnosed him as suffering from asperages syndrome and from the brief understanding of it explains some of his behaviour... but not all. I dunno if this is gonna be another start to countless mis-diagnosis, more stupid drugs and fuck ups.
I don't know why I'm quite so upset, i think it just brings up everything we've been through. Plus I'm stressing about deadlines, I'm likely to drive myself loopy. My bf thinks it would be a good idea to go back to the counsellor's. I'd already been considering it but this time something's holding me back. I probably just don't want to admit I can't cope. I just wish someone could help him properly.
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I'd like to expand on this with someone who knows what they're talking about - e.g. a historian
Anyhow I have to sleep. Be well, OK?
I'm sure I'll be able to find a photographer, I just have to keep trying. Good luck with your application!