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a little update for anyone who might be reading this rubbish I spew with frightening frequency about my dad: I'm going to see him tomorrow. He's been moved to a hospice. And yes, a hospice is where you go to die. I knew this was coming, its just weird kinda saying it....it makes it all the more real. But my boy is coming with me, for support n that...what a honey..
Anyway..apparently dad can't feed himself anymore, and my stepmum has noticed a definate decline in him now.. My uncle, who's a doctor, told me the most common way people die from brain tumors is by developing a chest infection, or pneumonia - which my dad is particularly sensitive to, cuz he's had it a whole bunch of times before. I hate the idea that he'll die by suffocating or choking to death..I want him to go peacefully in his sleep..
Guess I'll update again once I've seen him..

I've been doing weird mundane things, trying to..I don't know..regulate my life... I've watched nature documentaries (now I want to go scuba diving and see tropical fish)...and I dyed my hair red, instead of blonde... see....I bleached it out, and decided I didn't wanna be blonde, so I just put red on..nice bright red. I like it I think I'll post a picture or something.

I'm sleepy now...
night y'all

xxx