I experience quite vivid dreams often, but this one was different. I woke up crying yesterday, something else which frequently happens.
I dreamt that I was dying. I had a disease (although I'm not sure what) and they were able to pin point exactly when i was going to go. That was probably the only sureal part of the dream, which in turn made it worse - I was the same age I am now, the people around me were the same, I looked the same.
My dream took place on the day before I was going to die. I felt healthy enough, I was walking around a hospital with someone (although I now can't remember who) but I knew what was happening the next day. I'd seen my family earlier that day, who were trying to be strong for me, and just as the dream was ending, I had walked into a waiting room where all my old classmates were, crying but trying to reassure me.
My most harrowing memory from this dream was that every few minutes, I would break down, hunched against a wall, or in the middle of the floor; tuck my knees up under my chin, rock backwards and forwards, and sob uncontrollably; telling the person I was with that I was scared of dying.
I was convinced that it would be like sleeping, with permanence, and if I fell asleep but was having a bad dream, I would be stuck in that nightmare for eternity.
the overall feeling of fear has unsettled me.
today however, i woke late from another strange dream..
Last night I dreamt I found a new born baby in a field, like brand new newborn, and I kinda...rescued it. But I told everyone it was mine, that i'd just had it. and they believed me.. didn't question it.
And I breastfed it...and developed 2 extra nipples (how odd and ickky is that?!) and it was great. The baby was normal looking, and not some alien lovechild.. and all the same people from my dream the previous night were there, my mum, my family. It was such an intense dream.. because everything seemed normal. And it was so cute..just a normal, cute newborn baby.
I know I want kids in a few years..once i've got someone who wants them too haha.. but still
In 2 consecutive nights, I dream about death, then rebirth..in the right order...
this has freaked me out quite considerably. Someone tell me what it means!!!!!!
so long as I dream about moving to Brighton tonight, my plans will be made, then set in concrete! If thats not a sign, i don't know what is!
x fin x
I dreamt that I was dying. I had a disease (although I'm not sure what) and they were able to pin point exactly when i was going to go. That was probably the only sureal part of the dream, which in turn made it worse - I was the same age I am now, the people around me were the same, I looked the same.
My dream took place on the day before I was going to die. I felt healthy enough, I was walking around a hospital with someone (although I now can't remember who) but I knew what was happening the next day. I'd seen my family earlier that day, who were trying to be strong for me, and just as the dream was ending, I had walked into a waiting room where all my old classmates were, crying but trying to reassure me.
My most harrowing memory from this dream was that every few minutes, I would break down, hunched against a wall, or in the middle of the floor; tuck my knees up under my chin, rock backwards and forwards, and sob uncontrollably; telling the person I was with that I was scared of dying.
I was convinced that it would be like sleeping, with permanence, and if I fell asleep but was having a bad dream, I would be stuck in that nightmare for eternity.
the overall feeling of fear has unsettled me.
today however, i woke late from another strange dream..
Last night I dreamt I found a new born baby in a field, like brand new newborn, and I kinda...rescued it. But I told everyone it was mine, that i'd just had it. and they believed me.. didn't question it.
And I breastfed it...and developed 2 extra nipples (how odd and ickky is that?!) and it was great. The baby was normal looking, and not some alien lovechild.. and all the same people from my dream the previous night were there, my mum, my family. It was such an intense dream.. because everything seemed normal. And it was so cute..just a normal, cute newborn baby.
I know I want kids in a few years..once i've got someone who wants them too haha.. but still
In 2 consecutive nights, I dream about death, then rebirth..in the right order...
this has freaked me out quite considerably. Someone tell me what it means!!!!!!
so long as I dream about moving to Brighton tonight, my plans will be made, then set in concrete! If thats not a sign, i don't know what is!
x fin x