I need help.
I dont know what to do.
I have no friends to talk about this with....
I just cant believe how stupid i am, i have always been suss but never did i actually think he was actually doing it.
Not once, but 3, or 4 times.
He just left my place, he came to "talk"....but he said exactly what i thought he would say.
Im sorry, i love you, ive changed, i will never do that again, bla bla bla...
I do love him, with all my heart...thats why it is so hard,
It would be so easy to go back to him, but i dont think its the right thing to do.
Im just afraid of being alone.
If all my g.f's were there for me itd be so much easier, but ive lost almost everything and everyone it seems.
I dont know what to do.
I have no friends to talk about this with....
I just cant believe how stupid i am, i have always been suss but never did i actually think he was actually doing it.
Not once, but 3, or 4 times.
He just left my place, he came to "talk"....but he said exactly what i thought he would say.
Im sorry, i love you, ive changed, i will never do that again, bla bla bla...
I do love him, with all my heart...thats why it is so hard,
It would be so easy to go back to him, but i dont think its the right thing to do.
Im just afraid of being alone.
If all my g.f's were there for me itd be so much easier, but ive lost almost everything and everyone it seems.
knives2meatyou:
I know you'll get a lot of support and suggestions from people here but I will say that if you need to vent I'm a good listener - you can send me a message if you like. Once upon a time I was an asshole and I was not as good to my girlfriend as I should have been. I learned when I got treated the same way by another girl and once I knew how that felt I never did it again. Unfortunately, until your guy learns the hard way he'll probably keep treating you disrespectfully and no one deserves to live through that. So even though you love him, even though you'll continue to love him, even though being alone scares you, you shouldn't let yourself be a victim. I know that's hardly much help but as I said, I'd be happy to be someone you can talk to, if you want. In the meantime, I hope you're strong and get through this ok. Being alone, by the way, isn't really bad at all - it's nice to come home to yourself, as an old song once said. You only answer to you, no one is abusing you, no one is taking advantage. Write me if you like.