Bleh...so Tom (hubby) and i had a chat the other night about where he thinks he might like his career in the Army to take him...he is seriously considereing going Special Forces....This is not news to me, i have heard him talk about it a few times but this is the first time i dared ask about the finer details and what the job would entail ...I know he is capable of getting in because i know he is a strong and incredibly smart man....and this scares the shit out of me...in his current position there is little to no chance of him being sent overseas in the near future because of the kind of work he does...its basically a home based position in which he does not need to be deployed...but in this new role he would be away for 8 months at a time......8 MONTHS STRAIGHT.
I am fully behind him in any decision he makes (well WE make - he wouldnt do it if i really didnt want him to) but at the same time im struggling with something - Am i strong enough to handle that kind of seperation?
Its not likely to happen within the next year or 2 so at least i have a while to either get used to the idea or wait and see if he changes his mind about what direction he wants to go in...but it was rather upsetting when i thought about it in all seriousness...8 whole months at a time without my husband...those of you who know me, would know how hard it was for me during these last 8 months in which he has been in training in various other parts of the country...but i at least got to se him a couple of times...now that we are back living with eachother its gonna be hard to let him go again...such is the life of the military wife i suppose....i better get used to it.
I am fully behind him in any decision he makes (well WE make - he wouldnt do it if i really didnt want him to) but at the same time im struggling with something - Am i strong enough to handle that kind of seperation?
Its not likely to happen within the next year or 2 so at least i have a while to either get used to the idea or wait and see if he changes his mind about what direction he wants to go in...but it was rather upsetting when i thought about it in all seriousness...8 whole months at a time without my husband...those of you who know me, would know how hard it was for me during these last 8 months in which he has been in training in various other parts of the country...but i at least got to se him a couple of times...now that we are back living with eachother its gonna be hard to let him go again...such is the life of the military wife i suppose....i better get used to it.
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static_life:
hows things, sorry I don't chat much anymore.
zoos:
Love, I hate to say it but it takes a certain kind of person to be a military wife. And you know what kind of person you are based on only one thing. You either make it or you don't. My husband is on his second deployment. His last one lasted for 18 months. He's been gone since November of this year and is currently home on R&R for 2 weeks. After he goes back I will not see him for another 10 months to a year. We have a baby girl, who he is missing out on the first year of her life. It's hard, it is not fun, and sometimes I miss him so much that my body aches as much as my heart. But I know I'm ok, and that I'll be ok, because regardless the distance, or the danger that he's constantly in, we are always connected. Love sometimes has these crazy unbreakable bonds, and it doesn't matter what's going on around you because it's something that can't be touched by the outside world no matter WHAT happens. I find comfort in this, perhaps you can too.