Well, I'm feeling back to normal. It's been a tough week, but nothing I can't handle. 
Seems like most everyone in my salon are now coming down with whatever I had. So sad...
This week was hard for another reason too. (note: ARtrageouz you might want to stop reading here) On the 11th of this month I would have been 7 months pregnant. It really hit me kinda hard. See we had been trying to get pregnant for about a year or so with no results. Then BAM! it happened. Yeah, we were those crazy "we're trying to get pregnant" people. I guess you could say we were obsessed with it. Anyway I KNEW the second he made it happen. It was really crazy. And sure as shit, he had. Well I was constantly sick. And something was just telling me that something was wrong. Again, I can't explain it. Just knew. So I didn't tell any family. I didn't want to get my mom excitied if something DID happen... About a month later, when everything was for sure, the first doctors appointement was set, and we were ready to go public, I started to spot. The doctor said it was normal, everything was fine. I knew otherwise. Again, just KNEW. Acouple days later, on September 11th to be exact, I lost it. God I hate that day.
I had to call my mom. Let's just say it was a really sad time for us.
I know that miscarrages are common, I know that "we can have another baby", I know that "it happened for a reason", I thought that if I heard that one more time, I was gonna KILL someone. But FUCK YOU. It didn't just happen TO YOU. I wanted THAT Baby... So then everyother fucking person who didn't DESERVE or at least at that point shouldn't even been thinking about getting pregnant ended up being pregnant. Yeah, THAT FEELS GOOD...
sorry...
so yeah, this week sucked. 7 months. wow, time flew. someday it'll happen, i know, i think anyway. we'll see. So I focus on starting my salon. That's the bright side. Maybe once I'm open, then it'll happen... whatever...
On to happier thoughts...
So tonight I have a rubber dick party! YAY!!
I can't wait to go. See what kind of goodies I can bring home to my man! Sex is ALWAYS fun, and toys are even MORE fun... hehehe
Everyone go say hi to tush she rocks! Show her some love!!! Hey, she does tatts too!!!!
Seems like most everyone in my salon are now coming down with whatever I had. So sad...
This week was hard for another reason too. (note: ARtrageouz you might want to stop reading here) On the 11th of this month I would have been 7 months pregnant. It really hit me kinda hard. See we had been trying to get pregnant for about a year or so with no results. Then BAM! it happened. Yeah, we were those crazy "we're trying to get pregnant" people. I guess you could say we were obsessed with it. Anyway I KNEW the second he made it happen. It was really crazy. And sure as shit, he had. Well I was constantly sick. And something was just telling me that something was wrong. Again, I can't explain it. Just knew. So I didn't tell any family. I didn't want to get my mom excitied if something DID happen... About a month later, when everything was for sure, the first doctors appointement was set, and we were ready to go public, I started to spot. The doctor said it was normal, everything was fine. I knew otherwise. Again, just KNEW. Acouple days later, on September 11th to be exact, I lost it. God I hate that day.
I had to call my mom. Let's just say it was a really sad time for us.
I know that miscarrages are common, I know that "we can have another baby", I know that "it happened for a reason", I thought that if I heard that one more time, I was gonna KILL someone. But FUCK YOU. It didn't just happen TO YOU. I wanted THAT Baby... So then everyother fucking person who didn't DESERVE or at least at that point shouldn't even been thinking about getting pregnant ended up being pregnant. Yeah, THAT FEELS GOOD...
sorry...
so yeah, this week sucked. 7 months. wow, time flew. someday it'll happen, i know, i think anyway. we'll see. So I focus on starting my salon. That's the bright side. Maybe once I'm open, then it'll happen... whatever...
On to happier thoughts...
So tonight I have a rubber dick party! YAY!!
I can't wait to go. See what kind of goodies I can bring home to my man! Sex is ALWAYS fun, and toys are even MORE fun... hehehe
Everyone go say hi to tush she rocks! Show her some love!!! Hey, she does tatts too!!!!
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unique3:
aww.... 
honey I'm sorry...that's a hard thing to deal with. My boss had 4 miscarriages..sometimes she talks about it. Makes me kinda mad at all my friends who are having babies when they're so not ready..not married, no job, ect. I'm actually glad I was adopted because it puts things into perspective for me. I hope you do get you baby someday. it'll all work out. 
honey I'm sorry...that's a hard thing to deal with. My boss had 4 miscarriages..sometimes she talks about it. Makes me kinda mad at all my friends who are having babies when they're so not ready..not married, no job, ect. I'm actually glad I was adopted because it puts things into perspective for me. I hope you do get you baby someday. it'll all work out. 
ayla:
Ah NEW PIC!