cherrycyanide

What am I supposed to do? I want to be with him and I -know- he wants to be with me too. I talked to him lastnight and he assured me I didn't do anything wrong and it's not because he doesn't want to be with me. But he can't be with me because Amber wont let him have anything to do with his kid while we're togather so he can't be with me. I understand and I accept this but I want to be with him so bad. He makes me happy like no one else. He makes me feel pretty and wanted and cared for too. And no one makes me feel like that. stupid fucking amber and her stupid childishness. I kinda think that she's going to be the damn same as she was before. She's going tos till be crazy and a bitch. The problem wasn't that he was with me, the problem was that he wasn't with her. She's going to be just as fucked up now as she was while he and I were togather. And I think that will work in my favor because then he'll see that it doesn't matter what he does shy of being with her. And maybe he'll come back to me. He said maybe in the future he'll be able to be with me again. And rob thinks that he should just wait a wihle, till his son is born. And get some legal rights and shit and then give me another chance. i hope he does. that's all I ask for is that he consider giving me another chance after his child is born and he's got his parental rights and shit. i mean with the shit she said now he could get them anyways. He could get automatic custody of his kid because she threatened it's unborn life. crazy. but he wont do it... so yeah. that sucks. I miss him a lot already I know things are going to be different between he and I and I'm not sure how I'm going to be able to deal with that... I hate that I can't kiss him when i feel like it, or hug him just because, or hold his hand or cuddle with him. That's what's going to kill me.