"So what happened tonight? you said you were going to
come to robs... :\ you could have at least told me you
weren't going to come so I didn't sit there all
excited to see you and get disapointed. I know you
don't like it when I am a bit bratty but I really am
not used to not getting my way most of the time. And I
feel like I really don't with you. That's okay and all
I'm just not used to it. I really don't feel like I
ask that much of you though. I spent all day driving
youa nd steve around... and yesterday you volentiered
my ride to get sharia. And I was hanging out with
people Id idn't want to see yesterday. And did I even
ask for anything other then liquor i can drink too and
some gas money so we wouldn't run out, that I'm going
to pay you back for when i get some cash? No. I
didn't. I asked you to come to my ma's house with me
and said we don't even have to stay long. Hell I ended
up hardly staying at all in fact. And you wouldn't. It
would have ment a lot to me if you would have. All I
ever really ask of you is some time and it seems like
lately you do your best to avoid spending it alone
with me. It kinda hurts my feelings honestly. Do you
not want to be with me or something Sprout because if
that's the case just tell me so I can wrangle my
emotions into control and shit. I really like spending
time with you, which is why I let you offer my ride to
people. And why I like to pick you up from work. And
why I spend so much time in a house I'm bairly
starting to get comfortible spending time at. And why
I hang out with people I don't feel like being around
so often. You said if you spoiled me you'd look
whipped. I don't think your definition of spoiled and
mine are the same. I'm spoiled in that I'm used to
getting my way.... and I don't deal too great when I
don't get it. I wasn't asking you to be an ass kisser,
especially in front of people. I was just asking that
maybe once in a while you let me have my way. I donno
maybe I'm asking too much. I feel really foolish.
Anyways..are you eevr going to tell me what you wanted
to talk to me about on friday night? I'm really
curious and somewhat nervous about it. And thanks by
the way for being so good to me until I pissed you off
on friday. I appriciate it."
So I sent this to the boyfriend lastnight because of the shit that's been going down this weekend and this past week. I feel like I do this every weekend. Someone give me a job! I need to move out. I want to start a fetishy porn site when I lose more weight. Some guy e-mailed me and wanted to partner with me. He'd cover webdesign and shit like that, and all i'd have to do is be the face and personality behind it. I donno though. He seems funny to me. He wants half of what we make and considering he does all the work that's fine with me. still. it sounds like bullshit so i will probibly not do it. I need some fucking cash though. fuck. I need to move out. the boyfriend is willing to move with me if we find a place he likes and stuff. I have to have a job first though. Anyways... anyone think I'm wrong for what I said? Oh that apology I made downt here was like this:
We got really trashed a day I was stressed about getting in trouble with my mom over an argument and my dissapearing act ( I was 'posed to drop my cousin off and come home, but insted I went to robs and dodged her all day.) and that night I was uber super duber dumb bitch drunk. And ended up upset about my mom. The boyfriend came and talked with me and shit and he was really great he held me and everything. But I told him he didn't understand and so he couldn't care. That's not what I ment to say, mind you I was drunk. IT totally came out wrong. But he got pissed off and stormed away. Then the cops came and we had to leave. I was so glad they didn't breathalize us. Lmao I was soooooo super drunk. I drank nearly a half bottle of gin by myself. no one else touched the gin hardly. in fact only bryan had some I think. Holy shit I drank nearly half a bottle of gin. no wonder I bawled like that jesus. I'm lucky I'm not dead or something. LOL my poor little tummy.
opinions, comments, something, please, all of you.
come to robs... :\ you could have at least told me you
weren't going to come so I didn't sit there all
excited to see you and get disapointed. I know you
don't like it when I am a bit bratty but I really am
not used to not getting my way most of the time. And I
feel like I really don't with you. That's okay and all
I'm just not used to it. I really don't feel like I
ask that much of you though. I spent all day driving
youa nd steve around... and yesterday you volentiered
my ride to get sharia. And I was hanging out with
people Id idn't want to see yesterday. And did I even
ask for anything other then liquor i can drink too and
some gas money so we wouldn't run out, that I'm going
to pay you back for when i get some cash? No. I
didn't. I asked you to come to my ma's house with me
and said we don't even have to stay long. Hell I ended
up hardly staying at all in fact. And you wouldn't. It
would have ment a lot to me if you would have. All I
ever really ask of you is some time and it seems like
lately you do your best to avoid spending it alone
with me. It kinda hurts my feelings honestly. Do you
not want to be with me or something Sprout because if
that's the case just tell me so I can wrangle my
emotions into control and shit. I really like spending
time with you, which is why I let you offer my ride to
people. And why I like to pick you up from work. And
why I spend so much time in a house I'm bairly
starting to get comfortible spending time at. And why
I hang out with people I don't feel like being around
so often. You said if you spoiled me you'd look
whipped. I don't think your definition of spoiled and
mine are the same. I'm spoiled in that I'm used to
getting my way.... and I don't deal too great when I
don't get it. I wasn't asking you to be an ass kisser,
especially in front of people. I was just asking that
maybe once in a while you let me have my way. I donno
maybe I'm asking too much. I feel really foolish.
Anyways..are you eevr going to tell me what you wanted
to talk to me about on friday night? I'm really
curious and somewhat nervous about it. And thanks by
the way for being so good to me until I pissed you off
on friday. I appriciate it."
So I sent this to the boyfriend lastnight because of the shit that's been going down this weekend and this past week. I feel like I do this every weekend. Someone give me a job! I need to move out. I want to start a fetishy porn site when I lose more weight. Some guy e-mailed me and wanted to partner with me. He'd cover webdesign and shit like that, and all i'd have to do is be the face and personality behind it. I donno though. He seems funny to me. He wants half of what we make and considering he does all the work that's fine with me. still. it sounds like bullshit so i will probibly not do it. I need some fucking cash though. fuck. I need to move out. the boyfriend is willing to move with me if we find a place he likes and stuff. I have to have a job first though. Anyways... anyone think I'm wrong for what I said? Oh that apology I made downt here was like this:
We got really trashed a day I was stressed about getting in trouble with my mom over an argument and my dissapearing act ( I was 'posed to drop my cousin off and come home, but insted I went to robs and dodged her all day.) and that night I was uber super duber dumb bitch drunk. And ended up upset about my mom. The boyfriend came and talked with me and shit and he was really great he held me and everything. But I told him he didn't understand and so he couldn't care. That's not what I ment to say, mind you I was drunk. IT totally came out wrong. But he got pissed off and stormed away. Then the cops came and we had to leave. I was so glad they didn't breathalize us. Lmao I was soooooo super drunk. I drank nearly a half bottle of gin by myself. no one else touched the gin hardly. in fact only bryan had some I think. Holy shit I drank nearly half a bottle of gin. no wonder I bawled like that jesus. I'm lucky I'm not dead or something. LOL my poor little tummy.
opinions, comments, something, please, all of you.