I'm really damn tired of being expendible to the people I really care about. This shit with Dre is killing me because I care so much about him, and all my friends online and off and yet to them I'm expendible. I could disappear from the face of this earth and no one would think twice about it at all. And that really hurts because all I want is someone to care about me... someone to whom I'm not expendible...I want to mean something to someone.. I'm not even that picky.. just someone... and I can't get that and it really kills me.. it makes me evaluate myself and try to figre out what's wrong there and I just... I don't know all it does is make me hate myself and want to put marks along my thighs again. And then again...maybe I just need to get laid and quit worrying about shit I can't control.
nibbleg:
I can honestly say i think i know how you feel. But i'm willing to bet that your friends really do care about ya, and they would notice if you did disappere. So hang in there and become our friend. And yeah, getting laid usually helps...