cherrycyanide

So lastnight was my monthly breakdown. Even though I've had plenty of these. I donno I think maybe I really do need some help because i'm pretty fuckin' misrible sometimes and it just shouldn't be that way. Not so often anyways. I didn't get enough sleep lastnight. Or the night before and my head hurts like a muther fucker right now and I'm grumpy. I think I need to eat somethingand take my pills.

And again I'm having issues with my weight. I always try to lose it but it never works. I fluxuate between ten and twenty pounds of loss and eventually just gain it back no matter what. I'm seriously contemplating getting the lap band surgery. I found a hospital that does it and my grandmother said if she had to she'd help pay for it. But we all think my insurance will pay for it. She also said I could stay with her for recovery because it'll take a long time and I'll need someone to baby me and all. And that wouldn't happen in my house in fact I'm sure I'd have to baby sit in my house. Anyways yeah I think it's a good idea. If anyone outthere has an opinion on it I'd be happy to hear it. And if anyone has hada weight loss surgery I'd be pleased as punch to hear about it.

I also haven't talked to James in a couple days. The day before yesterday he got kicked off and he was busy after that. And yesterday I had sam over for movies. The cuddling and kisses were nice. But we got intarupted a lot cause theres no privacy in my house. No matter. It made me really miss james anyways. He said "You're good to cuddle with. Everyone should wanna cuddle with you"...so..any takers? Anyone in minneapolis care to cuddle? I needsomeone to hold me. anyway yeah I donno what else to write about.... So I suppose I'm done. Back to wandering around live journal for now.

Oh...and i really want a red icee. And I'ma change my pic.