cherrycyanide

I really want to have a baby... I think about it every day. I think I'm obsessed... I know I couldn't take care of a child right now. I know I can't afford it. I know it'd be a stupid thing to do but part of me just doesn't care... I know sprout is in no place to have another child. I know I have no clue how unprepared I really am for this sort of thing. But you can't learn this type of thin gthrough other people, like I have everything else.... I don't know. It's weird. I'm jealous of parents I see with their kids... All over the place. Every time I play with a toddler I get even more jealous and want a baby even more... ugh it's disgusting and I don't knwo what to do about this other then continue to argue myself out of it.