cherrycyanide

I'm tired. I'm bored. My head hurts. I want a normal life. I want a job. I want to have money to spend on the people I love. I am pissed off that I don't have anything to do on halloween. Granted I haven't tried because I'm more pissed off that I don't have a costume this year. I have no money and nothing to work with right now because all my old "work with me" clothes are all too big and got thrown out or otherwise disposed of a while back. I hate it here and I don't want to live in minneapolis, or minnesota at all anymore. I want to move somewhere small and quiet where I can get a job... I don't want to do anything but get a job in a quiet little area. And a house, or at least an apartment. Then I don't want to do anything but make my house look pretty and comfortible, and smoke up. I'm simple damnit. All I want is a place I can sit on my ass and smoke n' then do whatever comes to me. I want a place to write or paint or draw or color or otherwise make a mess and feel unobligated to not make it in the first place and not to clean it up right away.

In other news my hair is healthier again. It's pretty and it's growing...

In other other news I'm looking damn good. I don't seem to be very photogenic lately tohugh... hm. Well here I'll give you a new picture soon so you all can see. I'm doing great though. I get lots of compliments. A lot of people look at me in public... guys stop their cars to look at me sometimes even.. that's a little disturbing... Hell even my cousins say my boyfriend better watch out with how good I look lately.