Monday Mar 07, 2005

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I need clothes.

If you love me you'll send me summer hand me downs. >.<

Nothing fits and I'm broke. :p

sizes 18 to tens should cover me for the next few months. >.< LOL

Please, hand me downs. I neeeeed them. I know some of you girls have something! :p Hell You boys should pitch in too. I like boy clothes.
devil_bitch:
Ha. I haven't worn an 18 since I was 18. Sorry toots. I do have one thing. It is a pretty cool black mesh duster. It's a little too snug. I could send you that. It's hot!!

Saturday Mar 05, 2005

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It's funny.

physically and emotionally I still feel just as fat as I did last year.

I feel like certian things are still inapropriate for me to do/ware. Like I am still uncomfortible dancing, even though I do think it's fun it's extremely uncomfortible because I feel fat and nasty. Just little things like that..

And yet we have these huge bath towels. That when...
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Thursday Mar 03, 2005

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See this is what fucking happens.

She gets this bug up her ass where she thinks that stupid kenyan bastard is going to do her right and they make all these plans. Plans that don't easily involve herh aving two adult children. Then she decides she doesn't need me around for emotional support anymore because she's got the darling wonderful hubbie. Vomit.

And then he...
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devil_bitch:
I know exactly what you mean baby girl. I am having a time of it as well. My journal will give you a better explanation but there is always more. I too feel the weight crushing my chest... The tears in my eyes...At least I am not to the point where I want to cut. I don't do that often and when I do I know that it's really bad. It's like my rock bottom moment.

I hate getting skipped in the pot rotation. Those fuckers see you sitting there.

Sorry about your mom. My mom always blamed me for whatever fucked up shit happened with her husband. Now he's really gone and she has realized that she hurt me. Things are going better. We have a weird relationship. It's good but it's weird.

devil_bitch:
Thank you for being one of the sweetest people that I have met online. You rock!!

Tuesday Mar 01, 2005

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Nothing new so far. I'm still looking for a job.

I am going to go apply at a new temp agency today downtown with the boyfriend. Which means I have to get pretty.

That's okay with me. I clean up kinda well and I have my good pulling back brush here today.

I have been keeping up with my birth control, yay me.

We're still...
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Wednesday Feb 23, 2005

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I had talked to a shrink before surgery and she told me that sometimes ones sex drive skyrockets when a person loses a lot of weight quickly. Well I didn't really believe her. Mostly because I had a high sex drive in the first place. But now I do.

My sex drive is through the roof. I don't masturbate anymore because I have a boyfriend...
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theloonie:
lol, well if he ever ends up not being able to sate you then come over here for a day or two and i can show you what unsaitable actually is
theloonie:
5 days? sorry to hear that, but i currently have the displeasure of being a managanympho that has been single for over a year... its sucks

Tuesday Feb 22, 2005

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Jermaine gave me a chain with a little key on it. Like a journal key or something like that and told me it was to something very important, on valentines day. It was cute. Then lastnight I asked him what it was for and he and I playfully argued cause he didn't wanna tell me. In the end he grabbed my hand and said "You...
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kizmet:

Monday Feb 14, 2005

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Best valentines day ever thus far.

And I haven't even made it to go see the boyfriend again yet today.

I had early morning technically valentines day sex lastnight.

It was great.

Then this morning sprout got in a bad mood talking to amber so I gave him his gift early. He cheered up a little after that.

Then I Went and saw my big...
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Friday Feb 11, 2005

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So I don't know.

We have no plans for valentines day except that we're going to hang out and that we're going to exchange gifts and stuff.

I am getting nervous aobut the braclet I made him because I don't feel like it's enough but I'm broke so I can't do better.

I have a temp agency job now and I'm hopefully getting some office...
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kizmet:

Happy valentines love!...Muwaaah!!!.. kiss love kiss

Saturday Feb 05, 2005

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She had an abortion yesterday.

I'm scared about what this is going to do to Jermaine.

He wanted that baby so goddamn bad.

I hate that theres nothing I can do about this.

I hate that he had no say in it really.

I hate that she waited so goddamn long and caused so much shit only to do this in the end.

fucking cunt.
devil_bitch:
That fucking bitch. I bet she partly did it out of spite too. That sucks. Tell your man I'm sorry. I know he doesn't know me but I can totaly feel where he's coming from. Just give him time to deal with it and don't let him do anything stupid in the process. You know how men can be.

Friday Feb 04, 2005

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I had the best night in a long time. I got out the car at bry's house and grabbed my shit and stood at the bottom of the stairs because Jackie had brought her drunk ass down them and slipped at my feet. I gave her a couple cigarettes even though Dre had bought her a cheap pack of menthols. Then I got the worlds...
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devil_bitch:
I am so happy for you sweetheart. You deserve someone who is going to treat you like the Queen that you are. Now if only I can work on that for myself.

Thursday Feb 03, 2005

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Thanks for the suggestions on valentines day presents. I couldn't cook for him because I would have ot have somewhere for us to eat, and be alone and that's not possible in my house. Lol. I made him a braclet, friendship braclet style and in his favorite colors. I aalso wrote him a little letter explaining how every knot is tied to a thought of...
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sharkbait:
congrats, it look's like your life is coming together blush
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