Is it wrong that I don't want to be friends with someone whom I've know most of my life just because of the guy she's choosing to marry?
I mean. The guy has threatened to leave her, treats her like shit and isn't at all the kind of guy she should be with.
That's not really what bothers me though. It's the fact that I know she would chose him over me in an instant. In a lot of subtle ways she already has.
The last time I talked to her was when her fiance said that he didn't love her and was going to leave her (but still said that he'd marry her next year.) He agreed to stay for at least two weeks before he made a final decision.
During this time I asked if she wanted to come up and visit me, because she hadn't seen my new place and she was always saying how much she wanted to come.
Her reply was that she wasn't sure if she could make the time because she had to finish the attic at her parents house (she was converting it to a bedroom so her and asshole could live there) and that was the last time I spoke to her. I was reading her Xanga the next day and she was talking about going to the Zoo with the fiance during the day that I had asked her to come up. That's definitely not working on the attic.
It hurt me a lot.
The worst part is that I haven't talked to her since, and I miss her so much. I just don't want to set myself up for constant disappointment.
I guess I'm just feeling down today. Now that Justin is working opposite hours than me (I work from 8:30am to 4 PM. He works from noon to ten) I haven't had much to do. I can't drive anywhere because I need to be close to home to pick him up from work. No one wants to come up and visit me and I only have one new friend up here.
I've got to find something to do beside talk to my dog.
Though he is a very good listener.
I mean. The guy has threatened to leave her, treats her like shit and isn't at all the kind of guy she should be with.
That's not really what bothers me though. It's the fact that I know she would chose him over me in an instant. In a lot of subtle ways she already has.
The last time I talked to her was when her fiance said that he didn't love her and was going to leave her (but still said that he'd marry her next year.) He agreed to stay for at least two weeks before he made a final decision.
During this time I asked if she wanted to come up and visit me, because she hadn't seen my new place and she was always saying how much she wanted to come.
Her reply was that she wasn't sure if she could make the time because she had to finish the attic at her parents house (she was converting it to a bedroom so her and asshole could live there) and that was the last time I spoke to her. I was reading her Xanga the next day and she was talking about going to the Zoo with the fiance during the day that I had asked her to come up. That's definitely not working on the attic.
It hurt me a lot.
The worst part is that I haven't talked to her since, and I miss her so much. I just don't want to set myself up for constant disappointment.
I guess I'm just feeling down today. Now that Justin is working opposite hours than me (I work from 8:30am to 4 PM. He works from noon to ten) I haven't had much to do. I can't drive anywhere because I need to be close to home to pick him up from work. No one wants to come up and visit me and I only have one new friend up here.
I've got to find something to do beside talk to my dog.
Though he is a very good listener.
famous_amos:
you are right she shoud not be with some one like that. He sound like he is a controll freak. and proble sicking around for sex
l0vetrain:
I'm sure you've contributed a lot of effort into the friendship which lacking, it seems, on her part. Try as you may but who needs negativity in their life?
