cherry

I'm having trouble seeing things. It's quite scary. I think it's a migraine but it feels like I'm slowly going blind as more and more of my 'sight area' is turning to white light.

It's actually very difficult to read + type. This is a pain as I have loads of work to do today.

I'm ignored a lot lately. Maybe it's just I can be difficult to argue with. Maybe it's because I talk a lot of crap. I don't know.

We have a gig on Monday. It's been so long since getting the new guys. I guess they've had to try + fit in but the drummer really is sucking a bit + he doesn't even realise it. This is making me incredibly nervous + although it's 4 days away I have butterflies. I really hope it's not a disaster. So manu people are expecting us to be good. What can we do though?! It's our first gig with a new guitarist + drummer... how can they expect us to be instantly good?! They should expect it. We should be instantly good. Why aren't we? The drummer's only just started making an effort with practise. Ugh. I have to not think about it so much. If we suck we suck. As long as I play OK I shouldn't feel bad...

... right?

...huh?

Gah... must stop... feeling sorry... for self.