When Autumn happens I just have to drink it all in.
Pileated Woodpecker
Spotted Towhee
American Coot
I've been feeling pretty down lately, but immersing myself in all of the nature around here has been the only thing that makes things feel less overwhelming.
I'd just written everything out to explain it all but it just feels ridiculous and I couldn't bare to actually post it. It all comes down to a lot of pain from an injury I've been dealing with for almost two months now, on top of too much work stress and a terribly crippling feeling of loneliness thanks to months of being surrounded by people and suddenly being far away from most of my best friends, again. Even shortening it to just this couple of sentences it's not even interesting.
There's just something about the smell of the forest and even the beach at this time of year. It's my reset button. It's a shame I have to find that button so much lately, but it does mean I've been in my favourite places for many hours in the past few weeks. I've seen so many of my favourite bird species and I've even been meaning to find out more about various tree, fungi, moss and lichen species. I just never seem to have the time to cram even more information in my brain.
Which brings me to something else that I've been trying to avoid. This weekend I turn 30. T H I R T Y. That seems so old to me I just don't even know how to process it mentally. Maybe it's because much of the work I do I'm surrounded by people a lot younger than me but it really seems like I should be somewhere else by now.
Again, I don't want to ramble on about something like this so I won't. But just one (of my many) irrational fears is that there's a finite space in my mind for useless facts. I'm already pretty full up so every time I want to learn something new (every other hour it seems) I'm pretty scared that whatever I learn it just pushes out something else I already knew.
I swear this actually happens but I know the level of fear I have about it is totally unnecessary. It doesn't actually stop me trying to learn things constantly. So, while I really want to learn about all of the other things in the forest, what if I then forget everything I know about the amazing birds? Silly, I know.
Pileated Woodpecker
Spotted Towhee
American Coot
I've been feeling pretty down lately, but immersing myself in all of the nature around here has been the only thing that makes things feel less overwhelming.
I'd just written everything out to explain it all but it just feels ridiculous and I couldn't bare to actually post it. It all comes down to a lot of pain from an injury I've been dealing with for almost two months now, on top of too much work stress and a terribly crippling feeling of loneliness thanks to months of being surrounded by people and suddenly being far away from most of my best friends, again. Even shortening it to just this couple of sentences it's not even interesting.
There's just something about the smell of the forest and even the beach at this time of year. It's my reset button. It's a shame I have to find that button so much lately, but it does mean I've been in my favourite places for many hours in the past few weeks. I've seen so many of my favourite bird species and I've even been meaning to find out more about various tree, fungi, moss and lichen species. I just never seem to have the time to cram even more information in my brain.
Which brings me to something else that I've been trying to avoid. This weekend I turn 30. T H I R T Y. That seems so old to me I just don't even know how to process it mentally. Maybe it's because much of the work I do I'm surrounded by people a lot younger than me but it really seems like I should be somewhere else by now.
Again, I don't want to ramble on about something like this so I won't. But just one (of my many) irrational fears is that there's a finite space in my mind for useless facts. I'm already pretty full up so every time I want to learn something new (every other hour it seems) I'm pretty scared that whatever I learn it just pushes out something else I already knew.
I swear this actually happens but I know the level of fear I have about it is totally unnecessary. It doesn't actually stop me trying to learn things constantly. So, while I really want to learn about all of the other things in the forest, what if I then forget everything I know about the amazing birds? Silly, I know.
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You would really love the Bachelard text, it was not easy to read so I can imagine it would be too difficult for most at school age. I think that because it's translated from the French (I find they often write in a very elaborate way anyway), as well as it being a philosophical text with it's own language as a discipline, not to mention the fact that it contains lots of complex ideas makes it pretty tricky. It took me a long time to read and I'm normally quite a fast reader but it was so worth it.
The museum is indeed very different now, it's been completely refurbished, it would be really great to show you around. Even though I have a kind of weird feeling about the place now that I'm behind the scenes, it's still a place of wonderful things and the building it really great. I would love to see all your museums too. I actually have a slight phobia that I wont be able to see any museum in the same way now that I work in one, I will discover this week on my trip I guess! I suppose I'll certainly be wondering about the staff and if they feel the same as me! Speak soon anyway xxx
Hope you feel better soon!!!