cherry

i want to learn to draw. again.

i mean, i used to be able to i know it. i was one of the top in my class for "art" in highschool and my illustrations and paintings were convincing. i need to know where to begin and how to reteach myself. any ideas, tips, links? especially from those of you out there who can do this well... help me?

i am facing one of the biggest challenges of my life right now. i realised today that what i saw before as challenges weren't really so; they were merely one crisis after another. now i am at a time where i am not on the verge of another crisis and it is time...

i know, i'm vague. hasn't that always been the case? if i could offer more insight into the situation i might actually know the answer to all my troubles. and then where would i be? i mean, who doesn't have troubles? we are what we are.

funny how, when i feel like i came to the edge of breakdown, only to pick myself back up and trundle on i want to relearn something old. you'd think with everything else i need to be doing i don't need yet another project...

and that's when i realise oh but i do, for where would i be without all of the things i long to be good at??


i look down and nothing seems real anymore


this is stronger and bigger than us - the world always looks this way to me. so big.


please don't melt away




life is one big dream and everything overwhelms me so much.